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2006-12-19T04:55:00.000-08:00

i MOVED la ppl!

2006-12-17T21:21:00.000-08:00

ok. i'm i a mood to post photos. but since i don't have any phtos of my own YET. ishall post photos of my two favourite boys. yeah.

this is dhani lennevald:

that was back then, now he's 21 and he looks like this:

OMG! cool rite?! man, i hate guys and their fast growth! i still haven't grow since last year i think! i want to grow. and btw. he looks hot with six pecs. although it's a bit senget here, senget there. but at least he have rite? i went yucks and ooooooohhhhh at the same time. haha.

ok! my FAVOURITE guy. AMIT PAUL:

cool rite? omg. i love this pic. i want to put as my wallpaper but cannot. later my brother scold me. he said i'm not of age to like guys. doink! and he's of HEIGHT to like girls huh? wth. nvm. amit rocks. cos he reminds me of monyet. heh. and now, he looks like this:

disappointed eh? haiya. but i forgive him for his obvious neglect for his personal style. that's because, while all the other a teens members are busy doing their solo careers, you what's he doing? STUDYING! cool man. economy i think. yeah, and he's quite good at it. haha. see? my dream guy rocks! heh. smart guys don't have time to think about looks. ha. what's there for him to think about anyway. dreamy

so there it is! my favourite guys, later i'll post more things abt other favourites. haha. feel like it! om and btw! I FINISH my EMATHS HOMEWORK!!!

and i end with this,

AMIT AND DHANI ROCKS MY STINKY SOCKS!!!

3 days.

2006-12-16T07:45:00.000-08:00

ohk. i sahll first blog about thurs.
haha. funny day funny day.
first had selcetion for interview for ltc. [which i came late btw] had to argue to get out of the house. wth. how can she talk and talk and talk and expect me to go back and sleep? funny woman. so i left the hse without asking. haha.
therefore, i was late. like 1 hour late. so blah blah blah. after the discussion...
painting THE WALL!
oh yes. kathleen and i want to start a rumour that whoever scratches the wall will die in 10 days. i bet kath forgot abt it already. oh wells.

aniwaes. paint paint paint. then suria came. she didn't want to go home. so she jogged. after one round, she gave up and help us paint. so she's a new member in THE WALL club. yeah! oooohhh!!! and she's afraid of ladders. as in going up the ladder. that's just plain stupid!
HOW CAN SHE BE TALL AND BE AFRAID OF HEIGHTS AT THE SAME TIME!?
doesn't make sense rite?
blah blah blah. heard some ppl singing from the third level. HAHA. laugh like crazy. k nvm. supposed to finish painting. but ohwells. another session will do okae?! must ah!

then met tariq and haikal and went to city hall to get my MP3 fixed. MAN!!! life without my MP3 will be damn hard! and stupid! tariq doesn't have to pay bcos he has his warranty card. is it my fault my box got lost?! ok. mayb it is. man $42 IF they can find the lost thinggy. i'm dead. tell me i'm dead.

ohyes. the most paiseh thing happen. we were eating an long john's. k. so i bought my fav, grilled fish thing with black pepper sauce. then the guy was abt to serve me. then he gave me the plate and you know what happened?
I LOST GRIP OF IT AND IT SPILLED!
like the whole bloody thing! shits man. for a minute, the whole restaurant was looking at us. PAISEH MUCH! then the guy looked guilty. sorryla. he went a make another one. tariq said i was like 'omigosh! shit! how?! what to do?!' alot of times for SEVEN minutes straight. then he made me apologise to his jeans. SORRY! i made long john's rugi $5.50! then i realised that my drink was the only one with cover. go figure. they wer like making fun of me throughout the whole journey la! shits. man.

then went to raffles city. walk walk walk. thought of going to watch movie. but changed our minds. can you believe it? i cannot find drake bell CD at sembawang? mann. and HAIKAL! don't buy psp. your whole life is a video game la. wait. do you have a life?! HAHA. then went to downtown east. ate MIX AND MATCH. $8.50 for three ppl worth it what... ok. then watch the jazz kids christmas carols. haha. they were cute. and i realised their dancing steps were like all the same... doink! then they send me home.

ok. friday. i wanted it to be an uneventful day. and it was uneventful except for the part when i wanted to go to the white sands library. with my sissies and mom. then when we entered the lift i was like WOAH. there was a guy inside with his face in a mask. and wearing a hat. and i think i sadi 'WOAH!' to loud. that the guy beside him was saying. 'oh, it's russel lee' and i was like 'i know'. i mean like who wouldn't know. so then i was in the lift and he said 'hi'. RUSSEL LEE said hi to me! doink! i was staring at him. it didn't occur to me that doesn't mean i can't see his eyes, he can't see mine. ok. so in conclusion... I WAS IN THE SAME LIFT AS THE MOST FAMOUS GHOST STORY AUTHOR IN SINGAPORE! doink! so much for uneventful...

so today. went to escape with tariq and haikal again. man. no kick ah. pepsi was like our main fav. but it's still closed. damn it. we didn't take many rides. mainly alot of rainbow. haunted house. in which i broke my beach sandals. but i fixed it. CHERYL!!! don't throw away that billabong sandal! i know how to fix! ohk. niwaes. they were still making a fun of me abt long john's incident. damn them. doink! oh yes. and we made very interesting words.

CROP. what is a crop [referring to the haircut]
it's a cut that is short.
a SHORT CUT! get it?
ok. another one.

PRIMARY SCHOOL MATS. what is a primary school mat?
small mats.
a MINI MAT! get it? mini mat and minimart?
ok another one.

<u>CONTAINER FOR GUITAR PICKS. what do you call a container to keep guitar picks?
it's asmall pocket to put guitar picks.
a PICK POCKET! get it?!

hahahaha. laugh like crazy. ohwait the goa laugh. meh meh meh. siao ting tong.
coconut just won't talk! not my fault rite?! my only link won't talk. this is depressing!

OH! this video rocks! cause two of my favourite boys are singing like the main verses. AMIT rocks. he like super melts my heart until cannot freeze back. and dhani, he's just super hot.
heh. enjoy!

2006-12-12T06:04:00.000-08:00

giving you benefit of the doubt.

i'm disappointed you feel that way. it's easier said than done. i'm sure IF you were in our position, you'll find it challenging as well. it's not like we didn't try, and didn't fight for what we think is right. but sometimes, things just don't go your way. you understand, don't you? i'm sure you have encountered moments in your life when someone shuts you down. waste all the efforts you have put in. gone down the drain. you ppl fail to realise that behind everything, we have your best interests at heart. even if you don't like the way, we portray ourselves. don't judge a book by it's cover, rmbr? sacrificed our dignity, self-respect, time and effort behind your backs. but do you care?
i shan't accuse you. answer that yourselves.

we've been in your shoes before. we felt the way you guys feel before. been there and done that. we've swallowed more salt than yall. what you said make me look back upon my actions. i've reasoned myself through. there's a first time for everything. first time to get demoralised, first time to get encourage, first time to love, first time to hate. i have put myself in your shoes. now, it's your turn to put yourself in ours.

yes, we make mistakes. but there will come a time when you cannot afford to make mistakes. there will come a time when your mistakes will affect others. there will come a time when mistakes are no longer mistakes, they're crimes. there will come a time, when you can't turn around and say 'i've done my time for that mistake'. when certain situation comes along, mistakes cannot be forgiven nor can it be fixed. when you're in our position, or if you want to be, you cannot get away with the smallest mistake. you just cannot anticipate what is gonna happen. therefore, we take mistakes very seriously.

respect. cannot be defined specifically what it is nor how to show it. but i would like to noe, what it means to you personally. self-respect. there's a saying 'in order to respect others, learn to respect yourself'. from wad i'm seeing, you're not giving yourself a chance. prove me wrong. i admit, i'm still on the road of mastering my self-respect. however, i've been nurtured and broght up to beleive in cedar, than respect for others is much much more important. i practically live by the quote 'others before self' in all aspects. it's not abt being humble, it's abt courtesy. it's basic courtesy to respect one's effort. i respect ppl most when i've seen they made the effort, as i do in all of you. you are like this close to losing any respect i have for you. it's the first time i've felt like this about anyone. never once. never once, have i doubted whether someone deserves the respect or not. omg. i can't belive how self-centered you sound. EVERY HUMAN BEING deserves respect. therefore, i'm giving you the last bit of respect i have for you, in hope that you will change. i shall not mark you down. mayb it's different here cos you are made to show your respect for the authority. i dunno, mayb i've lived too long with a high level of respect for anybody to realise that this might be too difficult to some.

i pity the way you treat yourself. you protray yourself as someone who can't think. can't think for sensibly and reasonably. look back on your words. reason yourself through. i'm giving you benefit of the doubt dat you haven't gone through our trials and tribulations. THINK man, THINK! mayb then you'll see the light. mayb then you'll get why things happen. last time...

THINK!!!

oh yes... i do not appreciate ppl who i do not noe personally linking me. sorry, but i feel uncomfortable. i mean, links are for friends. but if i don't even know you personally. if this carried on... i might have to restrct access to my blog. hope you RESPECT my privacy, as i would do for you. thanks.

2006-12-07T06:36:00.000-08:00

everyone has dreams. but sometimes, in the midst of everything that's happening, we tend to dream the wrong dream. hope for the wrong hopes. wish for the wrong wishes. what if, by the time we realise our mistake, it's too late? how do we find out whether we're dreaming the right dream, hoping the right hopes, or wishing the right wishes?
someone tell me how.

i dunno why... instead of doing homework, i've been watching a teens videos. and drake bell videos. hah. lurve them as in amit and dhani are damn cute haha. drake bell is damn cool. his hair is like super duper cool man. i wish i had hair liked that.

i'm feeling numb. again. ~~doink! i understand. haha. serves you right. learn to treat a girl better next time.~~

2006-12-06T06:46:00.000-08:00

i look like i just came out of the paint bucket!

do i look artsy?

yeah. i promised to say that. okay. 6hrs straight today painting THE WALL. it looks better and i'm in love with the guy. haha. he's so hot and burnt. yeah! :)) okay, this is my last day painting until dunno when cos FIHOM dun allow. so yah.

day two:

then i go john little sale with FIHOM and my sissies. and i saw sgt emilia. yup. she was working there as a promoter i think. i dun dare smile or wave to her cos i scared. she looks dao. and i've never toked to her before aniwaes.

i wished i have a sound proof room. everything happens for a reason. one day, i'll spare some time to look for the reasons why you're doing this. but for now, i'll just take it in my stride for as long as i can take. if i lose control, i'm not sure i'll be able to come back. at least, i know i have friends and my dear plt mates to lean on in rough times. sorry to be a burden guys! love ya! wouldn't it be nice to have someone who you can give yourself away to completely. so that if someone else hurts you, you've got nothing left to lose? gosh. i feel numb. i dunno what to feel right now. numb.

so much for calling coconut to ease my soul.
me: hello
coconut: hello
me: you free? can talk?
coconut: sorry dei. i'm with .... [his gf]. can't talk now. call you back later.
*puts down the phone

it's 11pm now. i'm not bothered to wait. i shall sleep.

i'm still thinking of that sanctuary...

2006-12-05T05:32:00.000-08:00

hello. okae. today was today. spent the morning ard 5 plus hours painting THE WALL. now it seriously looks like vandalism. but i like it :) at first, when we got the paint we were like YAY! then after like one hour painting, we were like URGH! so sian- as said by syahidah. but it was nice... btw everyone! all the colours you see on the wall are all made up of the three primary colours! RED BLUE AND YELLOW! and ofcourse, alot of white.

yeah, we finished quite alot today, didn't we syahidah? yupp. it's like a crash painting session. but it turned out pretty good.

first day:

ummm yeah. i haven't start on my homework. therefore... i'm so dead.

how i wish i'm at the charlie chalet again. it rocks btw. squeezing together in one small room. heh. we went escape on the first day. haha. damn fun. scream like mad for nothing. haha. not scary oso we scream. then we went to the haunted house. GOODNESS! nurin amalia harrassed me. she got so scared she hug me. hug my body. hug my nec. my head oso she hug. yucks!sheesh.

then we watch juon. actually... the toshio boy quite cute lah. and kathleen looks like him too. haha. oh then after watching... suddennly, kathleen went to the mirror and tied her hair in two pigtails. omg. i tot she was possessed. since when does that stoner tie her hair in pigtails. scary dude. then sarahj followed too. sheesh.

second day... specs came. i have a confession! you know wen specs arrive... me, suria and nurin were looking for rubber bands and we told sarahj we were running? yupp. that was a lie. we only started running wen we climbed up the stairs. and we purposely panted. heh ;)

ohk. confession done. yupp. so awkward with specs ard. kind of funny. and they know all our secrets. sheesh. i bet one of them is reading this right now. haha. rollerbladed until my leg got blister. like my leg isn't ugly enuf.

bbq. and RUTHIKA CAME!!! she's still the tallest in the platoon. rupinin haven't outgrew her. yay. and whew. ok. bbq bbq. felt crappy and stuff. played a few unbelievable dares. then talked and talked. we squeezed 6 ppl onto 2 mattresses. haha. i was so squashed i was sleeping beside kathleen's butt! yupp. then wake up and talked. ruined the room and left. haiz. chalet was so fun!

that's because it's with my dearest charlie`06! yay. i'm so happy i have you guys! wouldn't trade it for the world. let's do it again next year! but this time we book hotel room! okae?! yay!

2006-11-28T21:51:00.000-08:00

i want to sleep now.

goodnight everyone! :)

if only we could sleep forever,

and snore our miseries away...

haha. this is what i read when i first woke up in the morning. then i realised i wrote that on my whiteboard last night. okaes. nvm. had a gd morning.

now is 1.51pm. and i just reach home... only to blog, get ready and go out and meet cheryl and nurin for the tuition thinggy at 3.30pm. damn i'm excited.

ok... my morning. went to school. to PAINT THE WALL!!! ooohhh... it's gonna be nice. yeah. we climbed the ladder and all. i think we looked like we were going to vandalise the wall or sumthing. but no... it was fun. i can't wait till next week. we're going out with ms naia to buy paint. heh. so wierd. but ya. :) can't wait.

and i oso can't wait for chalet and tmr. where i get to see my dear pltmates. yall unfair okay. laugh laugh laugh in your blogs. then i dunno wad to laugh at. hmpft. stuck in this pathetic hse. okae niwaes...

I SHALL BLOG ABT LTC TONIGHT!

wait for it... after reading chief's post i feel more confident to blog abt the sweet sugar cotton candy camp.
called leadership traning camp.

2006-11-27T07:25:00.000-08:00

ewwww... adrian soooo doesn't deserve ana. he can go and die with his stupid asri. and his mother, his stupid RATna mother, should go follow him. stupid woman, kena fooled by her own brother. PADAN MUKE!!! oh. yesh. you ppl shud die! and karin, don't perasaan! arman will never like you! can't you see that he's in love with livia!? goodness perasaan. But it's gd that lika has finally come to her senses. whew.

dunno what's that all abt? it's a drama on SURIA. heh. last three episodes so must watch.

ohk. but i shall not let those negativity affect me cos i'm happy.
that my mom has finally allowed me to go chalet!!! wuakakas. after much begging and subtle hintings.

me: eh. hari raya finish already the cookies haven't yet finish.
her: your friend lah. so many come but never eat!
me: then you cook big food how to eat the cookie?!
her: next time they come, i dun want to cook oreadi lah!
me: ya good. so you don't look like you're sucking up!
her: suck up?! watch your mouth ah...
me: watching... then cookies how?
her: alah... go the chalet then give la. still can eat wad...
me: (STARING AT HER IN AMAZEMENT!)
her: wad stare stare!?
me: aiyah. cannot la. chalet need adult to sign in for us... above 25 years old.
her: alamak you all lecheh la. i sign in for you la. sign in oni ah... ask me to cook i dun wan. go eat cookies.
me: DOINK!

i dun care. now i feel super happy. and to think i already carried out my nasty plan. hrm.

OK FINE! stupid instincts. i shall go take out the staples from her pillow now. HAPPY?! sheesh

2006-11-26T22:58:00.000-08:00

know why i change my blogskin again? cos i woke up this morning and feeling like

i need to kill someone.

like seriously. now, i understand the phrase, 'the need to kill'. and damn! it's fustrating.

screw me,
and i'll screw you.
i feel like sticking a knife,
IN YOUR FACE!

ok. i'm not that extreme. i wish i was tho.

anws, i have just finished watching a very touching story. HARDBALL. abt how if one team had the same one vision, they can make it to the top. and they did. it was also abt the coach. and how he felt like giving up on his team. but never could cos deep inside him, he knew that they were special. he never gave up, and he knew every player's strengths and weaknesses. he believed in them, and they believed in him. that's what makes them a GREAT team.

and that is what cedarncc should do too. if we work as a team; ALPHA `06, BRAVO `06 and CHARLIE`06, we can achieve wonders. i believe that although our company may face problems, like mr cockadoo and such, if we stick together, and maintain the same vision, anything is possible. every platoon has their own strengths and has their own weaknesses. it just takes that bit of pure unconditional effort from each and every one of us. we can do it! LET CEDARNCC FLY HIGH! wooohoo!

2006-11-24T08:50:00.000-08:00

first things first. I'M OFFICIALLY GROUNDED. infront of buona vista mrt. infront of tens and tens of ppl. she shouted at me saying that i dunno how to prioritise friends, school and family. therefore, grounding me until next year, would be a great lesson to show the importance of being at home. what's the point? the only thing the family needs me for is to wash plates and do the laundry. doink! haiz...

gdbye to all the hopes of having fun during the holidays. gdbye to sentosa. gdbye to chalets. gdbye everyone, i'm retreating to a month of darkness and gloom.

ok. then i went to the hospital to visit my brother. not like if i was sick he would visit me liddat. i hate my mom and her favouritism. gong them. then aniwaes. watched series of unfortunate events on the dvd thinggy. then i go eat dinner with my mom. alone. ok. be prepared for the most unenjoyable dinner ever.

so we were sitting at the kopitiam. and there was silence. like complete silence. and plus, it was at night. so the silence was damn obvious. it was quite peaceful until she opened her mouth...
she: gimme some ice jelly.
(so i gave her some)
she: so how was the competition yesterday?
me: wad competetion? (i was testing her btw)
she: the competetion yesterday la. whatever it was. how was it? (SEE?! she doesn't even know)
me: ohkay la.
she: wad you get?
me: one gold, two bronze.
she: wahh so little ahh. why bronze ah?
me: *i kept quiet and counted to twenty. cos counting to ten was not enuf.

WAH PIANG! doink. she's the most clueless woman in the whole solar system.

aniwaes. after that i went to the playgrd to go play the swing. it was at night. so i think i looked like a ghost. only in blue.
then i swing and swing and swing. thinking and thinking and thinking. then i started to laugh. at how ridiculous my family is. after all the scoldings today, i can still afford to laugh. i mean, ridiculous: we're trying to act like a happy family of six. when we're only a happy family of five. i'm like sort of detached. i think the ties with my family is seriously severed. even if i walk with them in public, i stand like 10 steps away. HAHA. isn't that ridiculous.

ohk. back to more important topics. as i was swinging. i remembered AAR sirs and i swing and swing and smile and smile. until i lost my balance on the swing and my butt hit the ground. then the swing seat hit my head. and now i have head aches. hmpft. hope tmr. when you guys go you can see them, the y'all must tell me kaes?

surviving on my own. a sanctuary would help. but too bad, they don't sell it in supermarkets...

2006-11-23T00:51:00.000-08:00

HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY!!!!

omg. i've never felt so happy in ages. i can't stop smiling. sheesh. haha. it's like a day since ltc ends but heck- i'm not gonna blog abt that yet! today was too happy a day. owww... my cheeks ache. SHOOTING COMPETITION ROCKS!

ohk. got news like in the morning that part As got team 3rd. i was like WOW! cos like they never shoot before and tada! they got third. haha. happy happy. then part A Ramya got individual award, 7th placing. so ohk. at the mrt i was super nervous. AHHH!

then we reach the shooting range. after alot of heads and tails, we were shooting falling plates against cresent. haha cgss, both. i was super lame la. missed one plate. then we had like 4 more plates left when the whistle blew. haiya. i felt like crying. felt like super disappointed.

then springfield and prcs went. springfield lost. so they're against us for 3rd placing.i was like super nervous. and i had tears in my eyes. until AAR SIR came and encouraged me and wished me gd luck! omg. so sweet. yay. then i shot. woohoo. my first three shots were right on! then i stopped. then it hit me. WOI! the rest haven't finished. and guess what? all my remaining three shots hit oso! omg. unbeleivable. i think it's the sir's gdluck thing. haha. oh and the planks in the foxhole increased my height so i shot better. heh.

oh. and everyone. especially cresent. was very encouraging and sporting. thanks. :)

so happy. then we go received price. ok. this is what we got:

-Part A ramya individual, 7th

-Jessie individual, 2nd

-Sarahj individual, 4th

-Me, individual, 8th

-Part A Team, 3rd

-CHARLIE Team [ falling plates], 3rd

-CHARLIE Team [100 m], 1st

-CHAMPION PART C TEAM GIRLS!!! :)

see? like sarahj said. we give back one, and we take back another one. and this time... it's bot broken! heh.

This is 10% luck,

20% skill

15% concentrated power of will

5% pleasure,

50% pain

And a hundred percent reason to remember the name!

CHARLIE `06 !!!

haircut!

2006-11-17T07:07:00.000-08:00

new hair new life!

weehee. today was like the last day of remedials, excluding the maybe emaths one. [which i refuse to know anything about! heh.] it's the holidays for goodness sake! CRAP DAY! everyone wore ORANGE. like finally. we look so united. HAHA! yay. so proud of the antidotes!

then was OAL meeting. mmmhmmm. ms poon toked, which surprisingly wasn't as long as i expected although there was still alot of digressing. and she made fun of my pose. i was shooting sunmeng la... then i asked kathleen to follow me to beach rd. and she dowan, dowan... in the end i got lazy to wait for her obs meeting to finish, not like she was going to accompany me after obs meeting oso... so i went to beach rd ALONE!

yupp. went there to sew my rank. lemme say that again. went there to give the aunty to sew my rank. and i gave the wrong aunty...she was super damn slow la.
"aunty when can finish?"
"oh. 30 minutes confirm can wan..."
so i walk walk walk for 30 minutes... then i realised i forgot the GAMERS! karabinaaaa. so i went ard looking for the one with the screw gate cos lyana wanted that. sheesh. so by the time i got back to the aunty it was 45 minutes later. and you noe wad she said?

"HAH? 30 minutes already ah?"
omg. i wan to bush bush bush her head la! idiotic.
she said give her another 10 minutes. so okay.... i give her another 10 minutes. i walked around. i think i passed by many shops many many times.
until one uncle ask me, you come here yesterday oso rite? with your friends? then i was like yah. then he toked abt last time he used to school at cedar boys' [if there was such a thing] and that area was very dirty. then i say, 'nolah! clean wad... they make new roads then always got someone sweep one.' then the aunty next door told me he was not toking abt physical cleaniness. i went OOOOOOOO... then they laugh. idiots.

ok. then i went back to the shop. the aunty look at me and she was like "OH YAH! yours i forgot! ok 10 minutes 10 minutes!"
OMG!!! seriously is she stupid or is she stupid? i got so fed up. i pulled out a chair, from dunnowhere, and sat right in front of her. incase she forget me again. hmph. finally, i got my uniform and there were alot of loose threads. never again shall i go and sew my rank at the shop in front of the orange orange shop!
NEVER EVER! sickening.

then i met my mom at my sisters' school and we all go cut hair at bedok. it's like a bawah kolong hairdresser but i like her. i'd rather have a nice hairdresser to cut my hair than a bloody stuck up one, at simei. HMPH! i dunno. but this time she a bit siao la. she cut already... then she said can style it. so she took one lump of WAX and slop it on my head! goodness. so much wax. so spiky. i dun like. why not i buy a wick and she can put it on my head and i can be a walking candle! seriouosly. the amt of wax. and i got back at my mom for yesterday. she wants to straighten her hair then she ask me wad haircut to cut. and i showed her a haircut that was meant for thin teenagers. and she used it. so now she looks like an old woman trying to act young. ha. ridiculous. wuakakas.
dare screw me again. bear the consequences. muahahahas

i miss A, delifrance guy and monyet. long time never heard of them. damn. somehow... i miss specialists too. hmmm... i miss parade, pts and drills. goodness. i'm dying. nehmind. ltc coming. but excite myself. WHEE! that reminds me SHOOTING COM! which in turn reminds me PUMPINGS!!!

ARGH!

2006-11-16T06:04:00.000-08:00

!shit!

she made me cry.

i'm bloody pissed with my mom.

i tot she was the understanding one. ARGH! goodness. so idiotic. why can't parents be understanding and listen FOR ONCE. just one minute to listen also i don't mind. but not even listening at all! wtf. if only she was the one rushing from one point of singapore to the opposite point of singapore everyday. i thought we got closer this year. i thought i made her happy this year. i tried like crazy. ok. she want me to go from clementi for tuition, ok, i go. then after tuition, fetch my sister from school. and expect me NOT to be late. WHAT?! she expects me to fly all the way to pasir ris is it?! too much. ok. i'm struggling with my studies already... YV@#R%I@T*&^!!! bloody pissed la. then she say wad? if ncc, i go three days never come back oso can; if OAL stuff, belay school until late, until miss break fast oso can... then she say bad influence from friends. WTF! man. you can bitch abt my studies abt my morals but never EVER bitch abt my friends, my cca, or the oal board. because without them, i won't even come to school. they're the ones that support me when she said i couldn't makeit. they are like my pillars of bloody strength okae?

so BACK OFF!

BURDEN, BURDEN BURDEN! i'm sick of that word.

i feel that no matter how hard i try, i will always be a burden to my mother. even if i slice my butt while trying oso. i will still be a burden. never make my parents happy before. i'm sick of trying ok. sick and tired of it! bahh. i need to breathe. ok. calm down. ARGH!!! cannot. why ah? why liddat? she always say i malu her, i make her angry, useless good fro nothing daughter, stupid unreliable sister. committed to the school oni. she makes me feel like my biggest mistake in life was to get 2nd in class in pri 2. ARGH! i gotta get out now, before i spoil my keyboard.

and i'm not finding a reason to be angry, you stupid useless coconut. sgt dhilshad is right! i shud practice self-control. or i'll end up killing myself! goodness... my biggest wish right now, is to get out and take a midnight bus to nowhere and never ever have to return home! sheesh. home is where the heart is... KEPOOOI ah!

PERAK man!

2006-11-09T05:11:00.000-08:00

ok NOW!!!! ten ten ten....
PERAK EXPEDITION!
damn nice. well, not
damn. but nice.

first night
sleepover at hq. not much la. except i was quite upset that we
had to go with EAST. of all districts. sorry. but ya. okae moving
on...
second day
set off for PERAK. mr. COMMON SENSE SUCKS! hrmms. yep. it was an eight hour journey. so we had stops. and when there was a stop means ther's FOOD. we ate like gluttons. ramlee burger to crackers to dunkin donuts to baskin robins. ya. we stuff ourselves like crazy. cos there was nothing left to do except play uno. and the guys were super annoying. when we sleep they talk, when they sleep we talk. and they talk alot of nonsense. and i mean alot. from guitars to you ego maniac!
retards.
then we reach the campsite. settled down. blah blah blah. everyone went to bathe but we didn't cos we waited for after dinner. and may i just add that the food there is DAMN NICE! ha. ok. especially the milo. haha. ok. we were quite kiasu. but to think of it. it's FOOD. then after that we bathed. when everyone is slacking and doing nonsense... WE BATHED! haha. then lights of at ten thirty.
third day
omg. WHITE WATER RAFTING AND ABSEILING-DOWN-A-WATERFALL day! yay. was so excited. we had horfun for breakfast. nice mann. then they loaded us up in a lorry. [with all the guys. YUCKS] we look like refugees. or some terrorist. haha. go war. then the leaves kept smacking us. and everyone ducked. I DUCKED TOO OKAE. u ppl ah... just because i short they say i no need to duck. I HAVE HEIGHT TOO YOU KNOW. it may be little but it's still height.
okae. abseiling. down a waterfall. me fad cheryl were the first girls. we were so fascinated with the way they set up the stations. oh we sort of act pro wearing the harness. khehehes. must the harness was nice. shud recommend to ms poon. they tie figure of eight on single bight you know. oh. and when i was abseiling down. it was damn hard. cos the rope was twisted. as in they set up the figure of eight descender wrongly. ha. see? we can tell. yupp. then finish and i got bitten by a tweeny leech. heh. THANKS CHERLY LWIN! okae. poor suria kept falling with her so-called SAF slippers. the rest went preety smoothly.
then! WHITE WATER RAFTING! woo hoo i like this. it was so fun and our river guide as a cool aussey accent. we boosh in boosh out of the water. so fun. my boat got fad dian adeline me and maam thang. and all the boats just set of like five minutes, and from far we saw someone fall off. we were like HAHA what stupid person fall off the boat after only five minutes. and it turned out to be kathleen kong. haha. and just to make it clear. guys scream too. it's just that girls go WHEEEEE- and guys are more like WHOOOOO-. but it's still counted screaming wad.
then whilst bathing, we encountered the AMs. super annoying ppl. can't keep their mouths shut. think they so big. bloody goons. then we played uno until late. and we chit chatted. all eleven of us. i think we bonded well. i realised that we're the only ppl who moved as a whole. the rest always moved in drips and draps. haha. ok. so proud of us. yay cedar!
fourth day
CAVING! we were having a dilemma cos we were running out of clothes. and the pack list was like super stupid. niwaes. ya. settled that then we realised something. the guys were like wearing the same shirt since like god knows when! some i think wear since day one. GROSS!!! they smell like EWWWWWWW.... then we have to fall in with them. wahh. cannot tahan man. can die.
then we took a van to the caves. lucky we never take lorry. heh. then we were saying the guy's van would not make it to the cave. instead they would go to the hospital cos the driver cannot make it. suffocated by their POISON GAS. seriously. they shud learn poisen hygiene. sorry, i mean PROPER HYGIENE! sheesh.
CAVES. our guide was zul. yup. brought us through. first we look look at shapes of the things. got rabbit la osama la monkey la. interesting. heh. then we slide down this slope thinggy into some dark place. then squeeze through ahole into another dark place with water. then after that crawl through roll through. squeeze through. kathleen was like ah ah ah. gundu. and i was amazed that my torch worked underwater! haha. wee hee.
then we had lunch under the sun when everyone else was indoors. took the time to dry and leave butt prints. weehee then bathe. interesting bathing without slippers. damn GROSS. nvr want to try it again! then set off for singapore!
surprisingly this ride seemed shorter cos i was awake most of it. we ahd stops. but quite uninteresting ones. cos there's no dunkin donuts. hmph. yah. so we toked. and toked and toked. the guys made alot of noise. they sang and it rained. then the tickle tickle each other like. eeee.... so annoying! pour pour powder. sheesh, guys. stinky already still make alot of noise. idiotic.
pass immigartion and customs then go home. wow. i do like perak. it was nice, despite all the other not nice parts. but generally it was nice... <33
like to dedicate thanks to CHARLIE `06. for letting us go for the trip. and sirs and maams la. and the perak peeps, for making it a nice one. special thanks to: VT, horseasshair, farty, REM, lwinny, dainty gurl, LOSTBOX, chicken neh neh, and ENCIK! woohoo! you guys rock!

LEADER'S DAY

2006-11-09T04:56:00.000-08:00

okae! i got alot to blog.haha. i shall start with today's leader's day camp.

HIGH ACHIEVERS... durr... nothing to say. um. to tell the truth all i learnt was amount of sand, amount of water and amount of pounding. dots. not much at sentosa. FORGOT TO BRING MY PINK BOTTLE. gasp. how could i! someone has to remind me to bring my beautiful pink bottle everywhere i go okae?!

but i found that the session after that the one in school. the monitress council meeting was DAMN DAMN FRUITFUL. like bunches of banana and buckets of apples. HAHA. ok nvm. the most outstanding phrase in the discussions for me was...

NOBODY LIKES TO CLEAN.

this is in regards to classroom cleaniness. haha. but it's true.

and then some suggested that we could have teachers to supervise some stuff. and mrs low went on about THAT SAME TEACHER doing many many many other stuffs. ha. ok. we got the point. yup. but it's fruitful tho.

then had first i/cs meeting. haiz. i shall always check my caller id from now on.

YESTERDAY

2006-10-31T22:12:00.000-08:00

yesterday got no time to blog. therefore, i'm blogging today
yeh. yesterday was the last belay sch for me. wahh. dunno wad to say. want to attitude. attitude somewhere else larh. okae backtotopic. umm... pretty fun. ddin't do bouldering. we did transversing. where there are like 1,2,3,4 on the rockwall and they have to touch the nos, according to the combination we give them. haha. WHOLE DAY THERE! survivor mann.

then i was wondering during briefing and debriefing... do these ppl know how much we effort we put into improving our leadership. i don't think they even realise the small tiny things like separating our scoldings and our instructions; being encouraging in and strict way or being strict in an encouraging way. do they notice? well, i guess we''ll just wait and see. after all, all the little things you do in life will make a great difference... sometime later...

yess... then GAMERS [excluding alicia, cos she had band :(] and FIRTS AIDERS went to ps to buy our bottles. HAHAHA! i'm so happy! our PINK BOTTLES with our special caps are here! yay! so happy! tralala! i bought pink bandana too. whee- haha. first aid cannot make up their mind. blahahaha. ok. sadistic! backtothepoint. ok. then we saw a shop with tops with cute phrases like, 'friends are forever and boys are whatever' HAHA.
then we ate at long johns. the high class place huh, lyana? yup. and i invested highly on pure good food. $10.75 not bad wad. at least i got grilled fish and huge coke! BLEUHX to you. HMPH!

then go for tuition. hais. showed my mrs prakash my results. she was shocked. told me i was capable. wtv. said that for next year mid year... she expects nothing but A1s for all the subjects. she SIAO ARH! yup. she is. told me my schedule for the holidays. looks like i got a lot of catching up to do. yupp. must get myself prepared for sec4 life. yupp. yeah! i'm motivated! woohoo!
but spent the rest of tuition thinking about belay school and ltc. trigo and circles are boring wad... no choice.

got home and was super bored i keep smsing ppl. yay. jalan raye tmr. I CAN'T WAIT!!! it's gonna be sooo exciting! woohoo! i'm excited! oh yah. SELAMAT HARI RAYA HANTU! meaning HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!! happy elyana?

why is it that even though i'm not speaking to you you can still give me stress? huh? annoying irritating dog!

FULFILLING DAY!

2006-10-30T07:40:00.000-08:00

okae. today started off with mother tongue olvls which was just super horrid.
some ppl should note that by saying you are screwed means you are saying that you are totally fine. because if you are screwed in you're still intact.
if what you really mean is you being messed up, then you should say, 'i'm unscrewed'. that's because when you are unscrewed meaning you are loose and malfunctionng. isn't that logical and smart? ha. i know i know.

then we had white water rafting meeting. and suria was super sleng.
she was like 'okay, i go beach road tomorrow.'
then we were like okay. so we talked abt the green cup and concluded that we have to buy new one.
then suria was like ' want to buy again? who want to buy? huh? huh?' and note that she already say she going beach rd. SLENG! the rest of the story is too slenger to tell.

after the meeting, me syahidah and qixuan went to singapore bienalle. kesemalatan qx! which we were not sure where. so we asked this thing called CONCIERGE at raffles city. and she looked annoyed. mayb bcos we were like local and we don't even know where is our own art museum. okae. niwaes. we went there. and what a fulfilling journey! and we know know there's such thing as a diagonal crossing cos syahidah's aunty followed a dog in australia! haha. tho i had to extend my curfew to 4 o clock.

we went gallery hopping, acting artistic and all. since we go in free anyway. i don't mind spending a whole day at sam. but there were too many creepy drawings [abstract they call it!] but i was super captivated by the ARK OF UNITY. it's like a painting of a little girls' funeral and how ppl from diff walks of life attended the funeral. so touching, she was glowing! we saw the painting and we went silent okae. so captivating rite!?

then we saw mujia and ella. so we chase them. then we continued together. so we went into gallery 2.5 and we saw this photography thing. that was very very nice. abt farytales with a scary twist. it was by MIWA YANAGI! see qx! i remembered. ha. okae. then i had to go home. we talked abt parents and freedom all the way back. haha. we're deprived.

then went home. and my bro's new computer table come already form IKEA! make room for ideas. yupp. we arrange and clear all his junk for like 3 hours. then we rearranged his furniture position to revitalise the feng shui of the room. heh. as if.

then we head on down to my room. which was a big mess. cos i have to clear the junk on my table and shelf to make room for the new ones coming in on wednesday. intime for jalan raye on thursday! woohoo. okae. anyways. i felt like boob the builder dismantling everything. then we dragged the shelf and table and junk down to the carpark there. yeah! family teamwork. it was fun. yet tiring. let's just say it's quality binding time with the family.
actaully, i felt quite elated that i made my mum laugh. ha. temporary oni. feels good to make her happy. why ah?

niwaes... wanna see my junk?

heh. niwaes, i'm sleeping with this tonight.

BLOGGING MOOD

2006-10-29T06:37:00.000-08:00

okae. i'm in my blogging mood these few days so expect alot of entries. TOMORROW is mother tongue olevels. it still has not dawned on me that i'm taking one of the most important papers of my life tmr. Perhaps. because i hate it so badly. ewwww... i don't like it can go and die.

i went out with my family and my cousins and everything and go house hopping. aiya... tired la. i altogether got around twenty packets today and i bet it's filled with only two dollar notes. so it means... i made ard 40 bucks. ok. i sound like a business man. ewwww... so little.

ok nvm. this is random. i don't understand guys okae. super confusing species. one day there, next day they disappear. stupid. done.

what is it like to get married? huh? i want to have three children. cause i was thinking about it, if i have one, that poor child would be lonely and would have to endure my nonsense all alone. then if i had two, they can play together but they will get bored of one another. SO THEREFORE, my conclusion is two have three. so my children won't be bored nor lonely. see? logical? yes i think so.

ewwww... the school year has ended. i don't like. sec fours sound so old and i'm not even of height! i can honestly say that sec three year has been the most fulfilling. full of enlightenment and self-actaullization. yup. did alot of things that i'm proud of and other things that i'm not so proud of. ha. there you go.

and plus! i'm gonna miss this year's sec fours. they are like the closest to us and now they're gone. soon, they'll get boyfriends, then husbands then children, then twenty seven cats, then wrinkles, then big ugly spectacles, then wheelchairs, then gravestones. [CHOY!]

and nurin just sms me to remind be to bring my kamus, NRIC, entry proof and my jacket. indirectly saying... GO STUDY!
and that's exactly what i shall do!

HEART BROKEN

2006-10-28T20:28:00.000-07:00

bahh. ok. this is the part of falling in love that i hate ALOT. bahh. so frustrating. so annoying. so BABUHEAD!!! haiya. nvm. shall endure. what they always say.... TRUE LOVE PREVAILS! i dunno what that means but it sounds nice. haha.

okae. hey GAMERS! we need to buy our bottles and our bandana already. and you know what? it's gonna be SHOCKING PINK! hah. no stealing horh. jealous ppl. of the PINK GAMERS. haha. i love games dept. heh. so happy and gay. we have lyana the at times seious at times SUPER SPASTIC! and deborah the very hyper and SUPER ENTHU. and then alicia who seems lost nad stubborn but deep down we know she's SUPER SMARTLY FUNNY. haha and stubborn.

okae. i feel happy know. and then i just remembered my tuition starts next week. DOINK! stupid lah. my aunty says that children are sent to tuition because their parents are incapable of teaching them. ha no wonder her sons are always at home. happy life arh?

holidays are here. yet next week is mt olvls. what is this man? ok. backtothepoint. HOLIDAYS ARE HERE! weehwwee! i'm gonna PLAY HARD and WORK HARD. i must go shopping and to the beach and just SLACK! i need resting time. heh. oh and work hard cos i need to brush up my sec three work and cos of all the things during the hols. like ltc, white water rafting and shooting comp. haa. life rocks during the holidays.

oh yah. SELAMAT HARI RAYA. just for you info. hari raya is not our new year. haha. some ppl wish me happy muslm new year. i was like huh? ok. nvm. sorry everyone for being annoying and excessively high for no reason and not listening to your problems and being selfish and irritating and too direct and maybe not being there for you and for being the noisy freak that i am and not living up to your expectations and being sickening and all the other things that i';ve done wrongly.

to SOMEONE: i'm sorry that i cannot be there for you anymore. i tried but cannot la. you've done too much wrong to all of us. it hurts to look at you right now. it's not that i'm influenced or anything. it's just that you've lied to much, twisted too many stories, caused to much disharmony that any apology from you cannot be accepted any longer. SORRY!

'artificially excessive politically correct formality humility' -quoted from ms poon

HAHAHA

2006-10-07T08:23:00.000-07:00

HAHAHA

exam's are like ALMOST over! haha. so paiseh. i have art exam on tuesday. ha. okae. i have a bloody confession to make!!! i have been trying to close my eyes for the past few nights to have that bloody dream again. they say if you had a dream three times then it will come true right?
guess wad... mine only happened ONCE!!! omg. i'm super pathetic! aiyah...

ok. stop it adlin. woohoo. haze is like super hazy. it's the hazes of all the hazes. haha. ok. super lame already. WHY IN THE BLOODY HELL AM I BLOODY BLOGGING??? huh? i have like alot to do for my coursework!!! weehee.

since have nothing to blog about... i shall blog about the exams... and brother is being an idiot. ok outofpoint. emaths and ss like sucked. ha. not much cos i cannot remember. ok. then was chem. omg. this one. i'm gonna blame mr coconut if i fail. yes. i will. and geog. studied exactly thecorrect things. aha. last minute though. then was bio. mrs gay wants us to DIE. and amaths. i did linear law. haha.

ok. done. what else? today, went to school to do art with yiou. and then we gathered sharifah's dyes and it spilled on my shirt and my skirt! we are gonna kill her. yes we are. then we went to plaza singapura, to spotlight to buy ribbons for my coursework. then we parted ways [chedebah!] and i went home. to find my cousins, aunties, uncles, and my grandmother , and their maids in my house. man..

long day... woohoo. right now... the PSI is 140. my aunt says that once it reaches 200, there will be no school. woohoo. oh and at 100+b those with asthma and such should stay home or risk DYING. haha. soo SHARIFAH AND MR COCONUT AND NADRAH AND YATI AND NURIN AND many more, please stay home and myob. it's for your own good.

i need to sleep. i need to catch up on my sleep. my sister fell asleep on the floor. haha. stoopid. my mum says i'm evil cos i nvr ask her to go on the bed. like wth. should toughen her up. because she's a downright bimbo. i mean 15kg eguals to how many grams? wth. what do they teach students in school these days... okae la i want to sleep. gdnight.
you know... i was thinking... if the shit that happened last year didn't happen... i may like you. Oh wells. i guess things happen for a reason. to make assholes stay as assholes. such a waste though. but too bad. i'm on to someone else. ha.
'The man who views the world at 50 the same as he did at 20 has wasted 30 years of his life' -qouted by muhammad ALI

2006-10-01T08:26:00.000-07:00

DREAMS

haha. after madrasah i fell asleep in the car. while my dad was getting a hair cut. and while i was sleeping i had a dream... one of the few dreams that i can actually recall. haha.

okae.
i was in the train going to pasir ris. and guess who was beside me? A. that's right. when we reached pasir ris, we imitated the mrt voice. 'this train is terminating at pasir ris, all passengers please alight'. HAHA. and we were laughing and laughing. okae. then we got down and went to mcdonalds to buy swensen's ice cream. i ate some banana thinggy and he ate some chocolate thinggy. wierd eh? it was already like getting dark

then we went to the interchange. i wanted to go home but he asked me to follow him go somewhere. so, out of impulse i followed. went to some ulu deserted house behind the interchange [which doesn't exist]. inside the house got alot of overgrown leaves. he ask me to wait outside. he climbed inside the window. ya. then i was tokin and tokin nonsense so i wouldn't get scared. he was plucking alot of these big big purple leaves.

'Eh, you pluck the leaves for wad ah?' i asked.
'Because i have to iron alot of people's uniform.' he said.
'uniform? then pluck leaves?' i asked again.
'yalah. leaf got starch wad...' he answered. HAHAHA. cannot tahan.

oh then. he asked me to keep my voice down and keep a lookout. then i kept a look out. theat's when i saw small agucha car pass by. i look inside the car and guess who i saw? MS CHNG. HAHAHA. i giggled in my sleep i think. then i heard a cracking of a branch above me in the tree. and i looked up and i saw A climbing down. i dunno why he climb down the tree, i din ask.

'finish?'
'DAH!'
then he piggy backed me all the way home... then i heard my sister fart.

wierd dream rite? all of it doens't make sense. but yah. nice dream aniwaes.

fallen in love

2006-09-18T06:07:00.000-07:00

SOMEONE HELP ME!!!

gosh. this is a funny feeling. i feel so oozy and tinggling deep inside. mayb because i'm having my period. heh. after eight months. but mostly, it's because I'M IN LOVE!!! with three people!!! i can't stand it!!! omg. fickle-minded i noe.

ok. i shall name them out. omg. so exciting.
number ONE snA!!! .take note of the giant A.
number TWO delifrance GUY .omg. ha and choc eclair.
number THREE monkeys. bananas of the world unite.

ha. it's so fun. people should try this more often. it's a good feeling. it's like you're sitting on a float on a river about to fall down a water fall. it's a good feeling. ha. i love it. but most of all... i love them!!! ahhh... my heart is melting. whee. wait ah. i need to put in freezer.

ok. i'm back. ha. who knew my anti-distraction list for EYE would be the most distracting thing in the whole universe. expected people are left totally forgotten. which i think is quite bad. naughty adlin. and unexpected people are discovered. mann... this is wierd. but still. it feels good.

ok. now, i need to make a point out sumthing to mr COCONUT WITH BIG PIMPLES!!!. i DO appreciate people who appreciate me! i even appreciate people who don't appreciate me. so how can i not appreciate people who appreciate me most? huh? huh? make sense rite? okae, mayb i don't show it in the correct way, but deep down i do. so therefore i am going to declare on the world wide web that...

I APPRECIATE EACH AND EVERYONE OF YOU! REGARDLESS OF HOW GOO OR HOW MEAN YOU ARE TO ME! BECAUSE EVERY HUMAN BEING RESERVES A RIGHT TO BE APPRECIATED, RESPECTED AND LOVED.
see what falling in love does to you?

'when we're hungry, love will keep us alive' -quoted by EAGLES

2006-09-06T07:18:00.000-07:00

DO YOU REMEMBER

ok. after jesse mccartney, i've been checking out the one and only aaron carter. haha. isooo should be doing my homework. they look alike i cna't stand it. only one difference. aaron looks better in white, but jesse looks better in green. yupp. haha. haiz, teenage celebrities and famous at tooo young an age. they spend their money on diamonds for themselves. when they can spend their money on diamonds for ME!!! heh. jk. the world doens't revolve around you, adlin. SHUT UP, STOOPID VOICE IN MY HEAD!!!

oh yah, before i forget. you big COCONUT WITH PIMPLES!!! stop reading my blog. you know who you are. because i called you that half a dozen times today. STOP reading my blog. come on larh. guys have better things to do. wad kind of a loner are you. omg. bleahx. and don't act cute, because you're not. am i handsome? wad kind of a stupid question is that? go MYOB with the blind girlfriend that you have and keep your busy body nose out of my blog. COCONUT WITH PIMPLES!!

ok. now, that's out of the way... lemme tell you something. my mom doesn't understand that my house is NOT a condusive environment to study in. i tred okay. snce, we failed to study in school. i took emaths and sat down at my table.

In a circle of radius r cm.... MA!!! FARAH PUSH ME!!!
there are two parallel chords... MA!!! SHE SIT ON ME!!!
of lengths 14cm and 40 cm... MAAAA!!! SHE PUSH ME AGGAIN!!!

OH MY GOD!!! i can die i tell you. it's so noisy that i decided not to make chocolate pudding. ha. their loss. because it's the best chocolate pudding. woohoo!!! that i've ever made. kuku. weehee... eat with vanilla ice cream. aiyah. just remebered i have to buy vanilla ice cream. bahh. have to buy it tmr. yupp. ok. i'm getting bored. wad to do.

omg. you noe wad happend? you noe wad happened? i have no idea!!! cos i have nothing to sae!!! cos nothing happened. just that on the way home today... i slept on the bus and i banged my head on the window sooo loud. people actually turned to see. but i AB and sleep larh. save myself of embarresment. wah. i think this year, i need to save myself from embarresment so bloody many times. so many times, that i can't even spell the word. EMBARRESSED rite? or EMBERRASSED? i dunno. you now the meaning can oreadi horh.

ohk. i would like to speak in the sacred charlie `06 language now. excuse me,
kadajhf fjkahfjd ioerubf jdfdvb ncvn hfffuy kdfflk dfdf. NJAFDHSD!!! jfhkdjfuuf nfdjhf dkasfo cxvnb ie djffsa ian jhdfajfm vjkdshnvou ,xmvcnjdA!
and that means.... I HAVE TOTALLY NOTHING TO SAY!!! BYE BYE

'you never have to question my love' -quoted by aaron carter

ligt head

2006-09-05T06:20:00.000-07:00

i'm light-headed

guess wad? i chopped off my hair today. and i don't care if it's ugly. whee my head feels extremely light. like a feather. or maybe i'm drunk. huh. i dunno lah. i drink alot of coffee today. i'm going to be short forever i think. haha.

yes. and i've been watching jesse mccartney videos since yesterday. ohno puh-lease... i'm over him... yest. when i was on the mrt, there was this woman toking to her daughter... ithink like five or six year old larh. yah. the girl told her mom that she like jesse mccartney. and you know wad the mother said? she said ,"A cute guy is good to like, but a good guy is better to love". and i was like WAHH!!! you shud see the daughter's face. haha. i don't think she understood. hahaha. i was laughing like mad. then i pretend to read my magazine. so ppl won't think i'm crazy.

ohyes. today, i also eat my favourite BAN MIAN MEE!!! omg. feels so good after like how many weeks. yes. i went to bugis banquet and eat. and i eat two POPIAH and VANILLA COKE and CUSTARD PUFF. woohoo!!! my stomach is bursting.

you know wad? spetember holidays rock. i get to relax. like finally. whew. but still got tuition. that wretched, disgusting, acha acha place that i spend one whole god damn afternoon in. BAHH!!! and tmr, i'm going back to skool. and i realised, even though i wish like crazy that we will get a school holiday, i never seem to be able to stay away from the school for so long...

and HE'S back!!! he's home!!! he's safe and sound!!! woohoo!!! after weeks of praying!!! he's back!!! he's home!!! he's safe and sound!!! i heard he cried when he got home, when he apologised to his mom. awwww.... so sweet rite. and the best part is that his friends were right behind him. they were the ones who persuaded him to go back. wad good friends rite?!!! omg. THANK YOU SOOO MUCH!!! yay. i'm sooo happy. he's back, he's home, he's safe and sound.

oh. do i need to blog about ssc? no need lah huh. it's just like sarahj said: we don't live to make other people happy. actually, to tell the truth, i was a bit disappointed. it's just that sudden pang of realisation that you've worked your ass off for nothing. but wen i see the winners [excluding surai priya], it was like, not worth it. i wouldn't want to be one of the stupid ppl they picked anyways. i'd rather go home, without a bloody award and be a bloody good staff for my own unit. insted of being the fakers that some are in there. yupp. whoo. i feel motivated now! whee!

'A cute guy is good to like, but a good guy is better to love' - quoted by the woman in the mrt

2006-08-16T08:16:00.000-07:00

guess what i did when i got home? ha. i cried. i cried for charlie `06,
for delta `06,
for coming home,
for being home,
for putting assholes as such important people in my life,
for not caring about myself,
for the world to stop,
for fishes in the sea [dunnowhy?],
for all the miserable spoilers of today,
for all the backstabbers
for the new generation of idiots,
for not doing my homework,
for TOMORROW,
for all the mistakes i've done
for my english compo,
for outting my trust in the wrong people.
haiya. for everything larh. EVERYSINGLETHING!!!

everything that makes this world move toofast. everything that make it a living HELL.
haiya... i dunno what to sae already larh. i'm feeling stressed.
hoo... breathe in. breathe out.
i think i should make another blog to post all my sadistic comments
haha. yes. that's what i'll do.
there's one more thing: I HATE MINNIE MOUSE AND COCK A DOO!!!

2006-08-05T23:59:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BDAE NURIN AMALIA!!!

Hahha. yest was sooooo funn. she didn't have a clue. haha. she tot my father fetching us to fads house but suddenly.... SURPRISE!!! we were downstairs, under her blk with the cake and everything... hahaha. and her face was like. wad. da. hells. HAHAHA. we bought her chocolate delight. we cannot celebrate upstairs at her hse because her mom got chicken pox. wek.

then, we went to city hall and penni. for absolutely NOTHING. went to ayah's shop. and they wah wah wah for dunno wad reason... natalie wanted to buy that nightmare on elm street kinda tee. creepy tee. and in the end, cheryl was the one who bought it. BUT the pink one. typical of a bimloon. then walked all the way to arab street to buy cloth and order baskets. then slack slack slack. my legs like alledy cannot walk. like jelly itell you.

officially, sunmeng and cheryl are the SHOPAHOLICS and AUNTIES of this century. they can shop anytime, anywhere ok. walk walk walk. stop. shop. walk walk walk. stop. shop. and somebody said she was supper broke. dunno wad they buy. everything like sooo cheap like that...

kathleen is my personal photographer. hold my handphone one whole day, take photo oni. she calls it artsitic photos. wadahell. i inspired her you know. ne day, when you geta chance to be a professional photographer, remember ME cos i was the one who inspired you through all the blood and tears. HAHA. and she wants me to credit all the pictures to her... duh...

FOUR days have passed. and i'm still in a state of utter shock. dunno wad to feel hapy. sad. excited. scared. i dunno... so bloody unexpected larh. i was totally totally unexpected. totally. did i mention totally. OAL results come out alledy. now we are awaiting for the even more important one. NCC results. ahhh... the nervousness is killing the freak out of me...

I'm going to bring my full no.3 tmr. so that i will have les things to bring on tuesday. alamak. this week like veh busy larh. ndp. then pop. then national camp. then veh busy monday and tuesday. then rod. ARGHHH!!! too fast too fast. well anyways... HAPPY BIRTHDAY NURIN!!! hope you enjoyed your surprised. and now, i have 5 karangans to do. whee...

'and in the end it's not in the years in your life that counts. It's the life in your years' -quoted by Abraham Lincoln

stop

2006-07-31T06:06:00.000-07:00

STOP!!!

i can't stand it!!! this year is like study study study nothing else!!! omg. and SOME people still don't appreciate the effort that i'm putting in. pass amaths oso not enough. must pass with flying colours. wadaheck.

oh and right now, there's a supper old man karaoke-ing on tv. irritating. no. cannot. one day i'll be liddat too...euwww. creepy. aniwaes, for my coursework, i have to make a fashion design or batik painting based on traditional food!!! omg. waddahell. eiyerr... thanks nurin for the ideas though.

oh and we played shooting balls of food into the mouths. and suria could not catch any. unless i shoot directly into her mouth. ha. she oso dunno how to throw. ask her to throw to my mouth go and throw to my nose. idiot. hahaha.

then after school, meeting. could be nice, if we don't screw up! jiayous! oh and yuslyana is PSL president if i'm not wrong and sunmeng is secretary. weehee! congrats! then TIUTION!!! and i left my chem tys on the freaking bus. and i bring my chem file, textbk and note bk. and didn't use it. why? becos i left the stupid tys on the stupid bus! so i did amaths in tuition. and there was this stupid lizard that was crawling towards me. gross. reminds me of lizard man.heehee.

and tmr, i have tuition again. i don't care, i'm doing emaths and chem. by hook or by crook. TUITION SUCKS!!! the tuition teacher with the acha acha acha. you know wad? i have an idea to getting rich!!! WORK HARD TILL YOU DIE!!! woohoo. then use the money to buy lots of paper money... so that your realtives can burn it for you. woohoo.

haiz. i'm sick and tired. really sick and tired. u noe... i sat under my block there for an hour eating coney dogg before i finally went up... like very lazy larh. don't feel like going home. that's why i go to school anyway, to get out of home... that's what everyone wants izn't it. i feel so lonely here... no one to tok to... only to abu, beijing and blogging into the blog.then after that do homework. ohk. my life is officially, UNINTERESTING. maybe i'll even stop blogging someday...

' the torture of a bad consconscience is the hell of a living soul' - quoted by John Calvin

replies:

nurin- okae okae. i trust you. who said i didn't i was toking bout another person larh de...
ooh, an angel- who the devil are you?

2006-07-28T06:48:00.000-07:00

ENLIGHTENMENT

i don't even know why i even bothered with you. don't care anymore orredy okay. that's what you want rite. damn disappointed in you k.

i think i'm in a state of enlightenment. hahas. i keep staring into space, thinking. why arh? i feel very old. i don't want to be old. nononono. and i feel so tired. not physically tired, more like mentally. no. not even mentally. let's just say.... my soul is dead.

i don't know what kept me going all this year. i just wish time will just pause and STOP. i was in eighty nine bus today and when it stopped at my stop, i almost feel like crying. i don't know why... i just wanted the ride to go on and on and on and never stop. maybe to orchard or little india or chinatown or geylang. anywhere. i just didn't want to go down. but i got down anyway. haiz.

i want a new friend. a friend that i can cuddle and hugg for comfort. a friend that doesn't know me well but is there for me anyway. a friend that knows me for something other than my jokes and nonsence. a friend that i can rely on ONE HUNDRED percent. i once had that friend. she disappeared. so much for one hundred percent... miss her.

what a night. you know now i even find watching tv a chore. omg. what is happening to me. do i need counselling? no i don't think so. i'm self consoling. i've survived half a year doing just that. i sure can survive a little while more...can you believe that i haven't blogged about goh yet. cos i don't feel like it yet. i'll blog about that when i'm really enthu larh. not now. now i feel like dying.

sometimes i feel like this year is the worst year. yet, i feel that because it's the worst year, it makes it the best time of my life. i like being in school , and no where else. i feel safe in school. anyway, there's everything in school. friends. food. homework. love. and joy. i love cedar. ha.

'Only life for othersis a life worthwhile'- quoted by Albert Einstein

enlightenment

2006-07-27T07:39:00.000-07:00

i saw you and you saw me.
i smiled.
but what were you thinking?

i don't feel like blogging larh actually. feel so moody. can you imagine? me moody? this sucks. i don;t like being moody. just remebered something and made me so sick for the whole night...

when i'm old and weak,
and i turn back,
would you still be there?

i'm just wondering will anybody remember me when i'm old? or will i remeber anybody? omg. how does it feel like being old ah? like very frustrating rite? forgetting things all the time. and by then, how many choclates you eat you still cannot jump. the bones will freaking break larh...

i ate mee, you ate nasi lemak
but you still asked for my fishball.
wadahell?

omg. yarh. my siblings. are sooooo greedy ok. i cannot eat in peace. wan this wan that. drink oso, drink my soup. wadahell! patience.... it's only food. ok relax.

candy makes me high,
but it doesn't give me wings.

i'm eating cuppucino nougat now... to increase my sugar level. and just now i made milo dinosaur. ha. but i still so moody. hmmm... i haven't try redbull before. i'm going to try one day. but the can looks so beer-ish. that's why i scared to drink.

i'm thinking about what it's like
to be near, to be close to you
once again

i miss alot of people today. sometimes right, i forget people that i love ALOT. like my grandfathers and grandmother. on purpose. cos to think of them reminds me that they are no longe here. and i cry. i miss them. haiz. life goes on...

you bring out the best in me
like no one else can do.

really meh? ii've never seen you try you idiot... i cannot sleep because of you ****er!!! i have no comments to say; but i have alot more stored in my head. and i'm not changing my mind. ass.

i have never tried
so i'll never know

how does it feel like to die? is it scary? huh? is it? i think i'm just scared cos i don't know when it will happen to me. i hate those stuppid scary dreams of falling through the windows. the stupid never-ending fall. and waking up without getting to feel how it was like to hit the ground.

am i enlightened?

2006-07-02T01:02:00.000-07:00

NATALIE STABBED ME!!!

RULES:Bold the statements that are true to you.Italise the statements that you WISH are true.Leave the Fibs alone.Then, stab 5 people to do the same test.
I miss somebody right now. (haiz..)
I dont watch TV these days.
I wear glasses or contact lenses.
I love to play video games.
I've tried marijuana.
I have been in a threesome.
I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
I curse sometimes.( oops)
I have changed a lot mentally over the last year. (became more retarded i think)
I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
I'm TOTALLY smart.
I've broken someone's bones.
I'm paranoid sometimes.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
I need money right now. (to make my condominium!)
I love sushi. (california roll rocks!)
I talk really,really fast.
I have long hair.
I have lost money in Las Vegas.
I have at least one sibling. (more like three monsters)
i have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
i couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
I like the way i look. (hehs)
I am usually pessimistic.
I have a lot of mood swings.(i think so..)
I have a hidden talent. (it's the talent for crap)
I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar i have.
I have a lot of friends. (i hope.)
i am currently single. (happy to be one.)
I have pecked someone of the same sex. (farhana, yati and my baby cousins)
I enjoy talking on the phone.
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
I love to shop. (when i have money)
Enjoy window shopping. (when i don't have money)
I would rather shop then eat.
I don't hate anyone.
I'm a pretty good dancer.
I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
I have a cellphone.
I believe in God.
I watch MTV on a daily basis.
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
I've rejected someone before.
I have no idea what i want to do for the rest of my life. (secret agent or not?)
I want to have children in the future. (named smart and clever ...HAHA)
I have changed a diaper before.
I've called the cops on a friend before.
I'm not allergic to anything.
I have a lot to learn.
i have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger.
I am shy around the opposite sex.
I have tried alcohol before.
I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
I own the "South Park" movie.
I would die for my best friends.
I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all!!! (he rocks larh pls!!!)
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and i like it.
I am happy at this moment!
I'm obsessed with guys.
I study for tests most of the time.
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.
I am comfortable with who I am right now.
I have more than just my ears pierced.
I walk barefoot wherever i can.
I have jumped off a bridge. (at sentosa)
I love sea turtles.
I spend ridiculous money on makeup.
Plan on achieving a major goal/dream. (my condo)
I'm proficient in a musical instrument.
I worked at McDonald's restaurant.
I hate office jobs.
I love sci-fi movies.
I think water rules.
I went college out of state.
I like sausages.
I love kisses.(hershey's kisses that is...)
I fall for the worst people.
I adore bright colours.
I can't live without black eyeliner.
I don't know why the hell i just did this stupid thing.
I usually like covers better than originals. ( has more spunk !)
I can pick up things with my toes.
I can't whistle.
I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snakes slither.
I have ridden/owned a horse. (the poor little horse in australia)
I still have every journal I've ever written in.
I can't stick to a diet. (diets suck...)
I talk in my sleep. (i think i fart more than i talk)
I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.
I have jazz in my blood.
I wear a toe ring.
I have a tattoo.
I can't stand at LEAST one person that i work with.
I am a caffeine junkie.
I cosplay or know what cosplaying is.
I have been to over 15 conventions.
I will collect anything, and the more nonsesical the better.
I'm an artist.
I only clean my room when necessary.
I like a person of the same sex. (what's that supposed to mean?)

now i'm gonna stab: farhana, elyana, syahidah, lydia and ruiwen!!
happy. being stabbed!

last hurdle

2006-06-23T05:36:00.000-07:00

MISSION: LAST HURDLE
ACCOMPLISHED _TERMINATED

ooooh yeah. annual unit camp. hoho. whee hee.

first day-
book in, blah blah blah. i was the csm for first half of the day. screwed. ok. then mutuals. constructive criticism. lunch ROCKS. maggi and canned curry chicken rocks.and the old man with the potato nose. ha. tent-pitching. erms. i realised i have very limited vocab. jurassic park. was a trek at mcritchie. i think they named jurassic park to make it sound nicer when it was actually a supper long trek up and a supper long trek down. muscle cramp throughout the camp. heehee. and swinging your arms like an ah mah helps alot. thanks auntie sunmeng. constructive criticism. dinner ROCKS. thank you maam shaniszah's parents for the supper nice food. ha. bathing. night cap. sleep in the tent half way then thought it would rain so we transferred to the hall and slept.

second day-
light pt, breakfast blah blah blah. them mission impossible. omg. tugg of war rocks. tho PANTS did not win and i had rope burns. but it rocks.and crawling on the grass got me my first ever rashes in my life. whee. happy but painful. stinging till now. [ i'm sorry that we flattened you, grass. but don't tortue us like this!] then we had IPA which was the interview and co nite prep. ha. i was feeling very gay.then bathing then campfire prep. omg. total chaos. and we diam when we raised our banner. all the sweat gone into doing that should be honoured. ha.
RUTHIKA came. oh yeah. my lovely supper tall buddy. heehee. dinner and then...

CO NITE!!! wheets. we pulled it off, CHARLIE obviously with the help of part bs and part as and specialists and everyone larh. yay. oh and me and nurin were bouncers.haha. and we came up with such a stoopid entrance jingle. i think we look supper dumb. haha. ok skip. oh yeah. xx and x specs came back. wheets. miss them loads. us and aircon rocks.oh ourlinks rocks tho they're the most crapp. haha. was i scary? i noe fadhilah was. yay. potato and SPICY SALAT ROCKS. whee hee. crapp like crazy omg. me and nurin did 'the crouch'. then after that we got high internally with our victory. thank you everybody for making it happen!!! interaction with staff merdin and sgt sham. oh yeah. they are sooo supportive. whoo hoo. loves them. interaction with x specs: didn't talk much just listen to them gossip can larh. and they seriously look taller and mature-er, except for sgt peiqi. she still looks innocent and young. then sleep. oh. i roll and roll and roll and i rolled off my sleeping bag.

third day-
pretty short day. supposed to run round joo seng area but did not. rained. so we run up down up down and turned around. hehe it rhymes. then breakfast. supposed to go catch me if you can at central singapore but didn't. rained. stupid rain. had rojak interaction. oh i suddenly realised. the specialists are hilarious. WAD IN THE WORLD IS A MUTHU?!!! for how longg we interacted asso i dunno... then lunch. and PUDDINGS. then big sweep. the prize presentation. suria's paltoon best. whoo hoos. oh yah. and charlie acted shocked when they announced the bgu. heehee. cheered WE and took retarded photos. specs and us rojaked and nasi gorenged. get it? k. nvm. said bye to the specialists. then most of us went to buy bubble tea. mine was milo dinosaur. whees. then all of us took taxi home. for once we are rich enuf. hehe. CHARLIE rich? funny.

wads wrong with my name? slang meh. my mother created my name to be ADLIN. not A-A-ADLIN... okok. my home work. need to do my home work. i just put on prickly heat on my whole body. every nook and crany. BAD IDEA!!!

our last hurdle is over CHARLIE `06!!! our new race has just begun. jiayou!!!

'first deserve then desire' -quoted by an unknown resource

2006-06-23T04:30:00.000-07:00

CONTINUED...

okayy, i think i'm too caught up with the mi game in camp. haha. i'm now continuing my blogging on my june stuffs. [how i envy the ppl who got so much free time] hmph.

090606-100606
kuala lumpur with my family and cousins and aunties and uncles and grandmother.
hoho. we got like one van and one car. i sat in the car bcos can sleep more comfortable than all the crowded ppl in the van. hoho. can't realli remember what we do there except shopping at klcc. so bloddy alot of time. like almost everyday. ohh. and dunkin donuts ROCKS. ohyah. there's this shop which sells nasi lemak for 13RM. can you believe it?

130606- tuesday
tuition: hey i think i'm like doing supper large catching ups on amaths and none on chemistry. and sgt achala indirectly reminded me that my chemistry sucks during the twister game when they askchem questions. SPANZ CS something like that cannot rmb.

140606-160606
SPECS COURSE:
jupiter two rocks. whehehe. my sirs have wierd hairstyles.
THANK YOU to sgt weikiang and bunk girls and everyone who encouraged us on for the three days. it really means alot.
oh congrats to the ppl who won the awards. you made us proud.

606- sunday
NEW SHOES k. actually, it's a pretty old model i think. my shoe cost 129 dollars. actually, i wanted the yellow limted edt one. but according to my dad, it's expensive because it costs 139 dollars. waddahells. i offered to pay the extra ten and he dowan. EGO!!!

homework update: completed emaths, amaths and bio. bleahx. i soooo have to start on my malay. 4 karangans and i haven't even start. that gives me like two karangan per day now..

'cloth is better than wood and metal' -quoted by sir fahmi and sir khairul

JUNE happenings

2006-06-16T06:09:00.000-07:00

okay, now FINALLY i have time to blog on my june happenings. ha.

290506 - monday

CLT: since i blog this late, i cannot really remember what happened. but i DO remember alot of masking tapes, newspaper and mr. berry. dots. oh yah! and our egg broke. yesh.

300506 -tuesday

tuition: freak

310506 - wednesday

dreamweaver: just remembered ultimate boredom

010606 - thursday

tuition: bloody freak

020606 - friday

the continuation of ultimate boredom though i got to do at least 3/4 of the webpage design. ha. boredom can kill but it can't kill me!!! whoo...

050606- monday

THAILAND: whee airplane with my friends. whee. hahaha. so much funn with the sunglasses which is pink. ha. np and nc girls unite to crap. hahaha. take two planes with mr suresh, miss thang, miss tan and miss begam. oooh. and uncle sim. got introduced to mr diamond. expensive toour guide eh? night bazaar shopping.

tell you the lizrad story. i was in the toilet, getting ready to bathe when i saw a lizard. omg. i freaked out and rushed out. told yara and nurin and those smart people 'came to my rescue'. yara was determined to drown the lizard [lizards can swim by the way :) ] and nurin sprayed her dove deodorant. so yara sprayed too. i dissolved a panadol into the water and antiseptic cream. powder and perfume and almost every toxic thing became the ingredients to our potion to kill that one stubborn lizard. then, finally called a security guard nearby to help us take out the lizard for us. when he go inside the toilet only, immediately he came out coughing. HAHAHA. too much toxic in the air already. so funny. ahahahaha!!! that kind lizard man took the laundry bag, picked up the lizard (covering his mouth and nose all the time) and threww it out the window. so sweet right. our darling LIZARD MAN!!!

060606- tuesday

THAILAND: went to the primary school on the hillside. they like supper got natural aircon cann. so cold. aniways, suria and i were supposed to be MOBILE MAGICIANS. toobad. we ended up teaching the cute little children colours in eenglish. oh. thai children like the colour PURPLE for some reason. so cute. mischevious but cute. yupp. night bazaar shopping

070606 - wednesday

THAILAND: sight seeing. nope actually more like 'dunking us to a place and let us go shopping for around one hour'. took 3 plus hours to drive up to go to the golden triangle. then they chuck us to go explore the opium museum and go walking around. then another 3 plus hours back. butt cramps dude!!! at dinner the BOX society was established. together with our favourite JOKER BOX. then night bazaar shopping again. i tell you, we did a freaking hell alot of shopping larh. and sarahj got so addicted to bargaining that even though i don't want to bargain the price anymore, she go bargain for me! haiz. that BARGAIN BOX!

and dumb dumb sarahj scared the hell out of me, sarah, yara and nurin. we tought she was some bloody pervert peeping into our room. hmph! ooh. the sandwiches nurin and i made were POWER!!!

080606 - thursday

THAILAND: oh last day, so sad to leave the hotel room. this is the day when we ddid serious sight seeing. a little too late to me. but the best part was the orphanage. the children were BLOODY CUTE!!! omg. adorable to the max. pity them being parentless.... but i tell you they were supper cute. 3-6 years old like that... so cute. sit on our laps. and hugged us goodbyes. and we gave them cute little gummy bears. i love our little orphan cuties!!! then we headed to the airport an dcheck in. suria bought yan yan for 2 bucks and nurin and i bought snadwiches and coke for like 7 bucks. oh.

in the plane i felt like going to the toilet so many times. it was cold okay. one particularly traumatizing time, i saw the toilet door rite there VACANT. so i just open the door and got the shock of my life!!! A MAN WAS PEEING INSIDE!!! wadahell. then he turned around with that shocked face. if i called his face shocked, imagine what my face was like!!! tramatising... okay.

reach the airport, took pictures and my father fetched me and yara home.

' i miss JOKER BOX and LIZARD MAN and CHIANGMAI, THAILAND' - quoted by ME

crappy.

2006-05-25T02:24:00.000-07:00

fun like crazy

why they don't like her anymore? haiz. nevermind... i shall stay loyal and forever true. hahaha. yucks. how contradicting to my sleeping beauty. nevermind, she's the past. little mermaid is the now.yesh.

oh. today was soooo fun okay. in the morning we had interaction with specs. and we toked about most of the things under the sun. and yes. i want to be a secret agent. the totally spies secret agent. haiyo. then, we went for best practice day.

at first we got nothing to do soooo we walk around walk walk around. and walk around and played a bit of badminton with the softball bats. yes stupid i noe. then we passed by the sports hall and to the court yard. then we made a team and played CAPTAIN'S BALL. whee.
ncc versus non-ncc. ha. and we won 5-1. yay. charlie `06 all the way. run here run there was worth it. and our shirts were tucked in all the way. maybe we won because we got extra training yesterday wif 3 balls some more. haha.

then was lessons. can you believe it? mrs janice teo is resigning from teaching. yahh. i think she's too young. she should get a life far from being a monotonous teacher. permanently. yahh. but i've seen her since like what? sec 1. ya. omg. so sad. we watched the movie. and i learned a new word 'methematical dick'. haha. how appropriate the next lesson was emaths. boring like crazy.

the we had co nite meeting. nishanthi and i created our potato item and we discussed alot about stuffs at our cosy corner. so nice then me and nurin had to go home. oh. and i decided to bring home my bigg pink box today so we had to carry that home too. and on the way out, nurin had this bright idea to take rafia string and tie around the box so i could drag it along. omg. so funny. we were dragging and dragging in the rain, laughing like mad. and the wheel came off. haha.

oh yesh. then when we reach pasir ris mrt, i met my mom and sister. hoho. close mann... after that i went to make my new ez-link which my mom doesn't know about. khehehe. my face as retarded as ever in the ez-link. but nevermind. anything is better than the old one with the diamond shaped head. and i bought coney dog and got free cheezy balls. and there was a lady at the interchange that was soooo interested in knowing how to get to cedar. i told her to take 100 and she said her house don't have. don't have then don't have larh. ask non-stop. until i finally mentioned the bus that goes to her house. like urgh!!! and i missed my bus bcos of her. hmph!

'there are no limits to human ingratitude'- quoted gracia marquez grabriel

dongg.

2006-05-24T07:29:00.000-07:00

MOOD SWINGS

have i ever said that june holidays is gonna skin me alive? no. ok. JUNE HOLIDAYS IS GONNA SKIN ME ALIVE !!! totally busy with homeworks and many other stuffs. omg. i feel drained even before i start !

oh yesh. today was embarressing. k. i donno how to spell embar- ya. that word. i was toking abt corny and corns and suddenly a head popped out of my class door. i shall not elaborate on the head. i just feel like pulling out yi ou's head and aini's head and qi xuan's head and mu jia's head. and my last minute act cool so didn't work... dammit.

parade- one of the funnest we had so far this year i guess. played h2o. keep asking sunmeng to flow she dowan to flow. so a ss go and flow myself. donggong. than we played hide and seek. omg. so fun. nurin and i panicked. don't know where to go and we hide under the sit up mats. at the sports hall. i think we were darn obvious can. the jumping ppl knew we were there but they ddn't tell. thanks. and surprisingly, we were one of the last to be found. after how long of smelling donno whose smelly feet sweat and ankle cramp. and we were found.

than got captains ball with three balls. so i might call it captaiin ballSSS. ha. okay. niwaes the red ball cost 5 pts but theopposing team didn't jaga the ball so sgt sarah and nurin were like passing around. scoring alot! haha. than got the scissors paper stone also. never have won that game. suria and i suck at scissors paper stone. hahaha.

you know why we had fun? because it was officially the last parade for specs. boohoo. so sad. sobs. bleahx. and at the end they gave us ruffles, twisties, potato chips and apple juice with aloevera. haha. they said they were gluttons. we are too! except. we are slightly smaller gluttons. haha.

i miss her. i miss them. i miss maam shaniszah and maam khalis. i miss looking out of the car window in the morning to see her sleeping on her father's motorcycle. and i miss maam khalis's freaky stare and end up giggling for no reason. oh no. and i miss ex-specs. and ex-ex specs. omg.i miss my sleeping beauty. and wondering how she always happened to reach school first. wahh. miss them to the limits. i miss little mermaid too. [ although she's not as brave as yara said. you contradicting wacko]

'the real you is who you are when no one is looking'- quoted by and unknown resource

nyld

2006-05-21T03:22:00.000-07:00

NATIONAL YOUNG LEADERS' DAY `06

rocks. to the limits. yesterday, i woke up veh sleepy then went to tanah merah mrt to meet sunmeng and lwinny. then we went to expo. wanted to have breakfast at bk. but it was closed in the morning. can you believe it? so we went to buy instant food at 7-eleven. ha. i bought nachos and choco babies. and we ate on the way to the max pavilion.

met up with all 19 of cedar's leaders. then go inside. so damn good larh the seminar. damn inspiring. lemme quotes the best quotes form each speaker:

'leadership is about the position of influence , not the position of power' -mr Martin Tan
'people do not care how much you know, until they know how much you care' -mr Lim Swee Say
'blow up a balloon and say that it is a woman's best friend' -Mr Jack Sim
'live as team, or die as an individual' -some movie
'it is madness to do the same thing the same way and expect a difference' -mr Andrew Goh
'and stuff like that'-ms Kaira Gong
'being a leader is a lifestyle, not a behaviour'- ms JOSCELIN YEO
'it's what you do that defines you'- batman begins
'no one has to lose for you to win' -COL sukhmohinder Singh

so inspirational rite? niwaes, lunch we went to airport bk. suppose to be be seated back by 1.20pm. then the whole lot of sec3s were in the mrt at 1.20pm. hence, we were late. not our fault the mrt won't move. we tried closing the door too. but it won't budge. then when we reach tanah merah all of us sprint all the way there. nolarh. not all the way. more like the first part and the last part. when we reach there the host was asking the people to massage their friends. wadahell.

then continue with more seminars. and the 4th speaker was joscelin yeo!!! omg. my first ever idol. the reason why i started swimming in pri three. omg. she sooo hot ok. her hands were like BOOM!!! then duirng the Q&A i want to ask question but then they never pick me. thanks everyone for trying to get thier attention niwaes.

after that, all of us went home. the guys at the mrt laugh at me when i buy standard ticket. cos i thanked the machine. wadahells. you supposed to be gracious ok!!! missing ... missing...

'hope is a very powerful weapon' -quoted by ms JOSCELIN YEO

2006-05-19T05:41:00.000-07:00

'it takes half a day to know a person,
one whole day to love that person,
and a whole lifetime to forget the person.'

wheets- this quote makes me want to start writing peotry. so sweet. okae, lemme try:

i'm stting all alone
eating my ice cream cone
she ask me why i so stone
so i give her a chicken bone!

HAHAHAHA... okae attempt failing. i'm an art student for goodness sakes. the most unartstic art student in that matter. hmph. i've never been so high in my entire life. today. actually, i never really remember the times i get high larh. outofpoint. haha. x-country rocked. really. omg.

it's a dream come true. nurin and i ran together then at the uphill i left her. ha. sorry. niwaes, thanks y'all for encouraging us. yes. and the special one too. hmmmm. yara was jumping like a monkey. haha. so wierd. and ms phua laughed at me. wadahells.

managed to get 29 tho. whew. improved by 9 from last year. yayness. ohyah. than i laugh at ms phua back after she run. or wadeva she was during that made her breathless. ha. revenge is sweet. then she ask me to open for her bottle cap. wadahells. nvm, i owe for helping me get my B4. hehe.

i think three-quaters of the company were at j8 cann. us, part As and part Bs. i think specs were ther too. i dunno. ate roti prata with cheese and sausage and supper ice cold ice jelly. then went for sickening tuition. kae not exactly sickening. more like boring. wait, boring is sickening what rite? k fine. sickening tuition. and i saw my crush at the mrt and the end. no further questions.

lemme try again:

i like to paly rugby
when i was in primary three
i chase the ball, the ball chase me
and i bumped into a tree !!!

HAHAHA. okae fine i shall give up now.

'A women needs a man like a fish needs a bicycle' - quoted by Gloria Steinem

sarah j birthaday

2006-04-30T03:17:00.001-07:00

happy birthday sarahj!!!

wheets. yesterday was sooooooooooooo x infinite funn. heh. patricia made this mad idea to go to different parts of taka for sarah j to find her present !!! wuakakas. the final destination was at the best toilet . get it? best toilet. nvm. oh yesh. we saw leader jessica at ps. outofpoint.

then we went to seoul garden [oh, it's pronounced as 'soul', not 'sioul']. haha. we made seoul garden $236 richer. waddahells. but it was worth it. yeah auntie sunmeng said that the food was salty so it would make us thristier and drink more water, resulting in a bloated stomach, so we would eat less. then... what's the point in giving food in the first place??? haha. eat soooo much anyway.

oh never underestimate suria and natalie's stomach. natalie ate like what 5 plates. good ness. i only ate 1 bigg pile. tomyam noodles rocks anyways. kathleen and patricia wore skirts. natalie looks adult. suria and her never ending yellow sb. sarahj came out of prison and i wore my favourite overalls. whee. [overalls are meant to make you feel airy btw. NURIN AMALIA]

cheryl and auntie sunmeng's sunglasses were sooo supper cool. it's so bigg like alien. hoohoo.kept playing with it like crazy. kathleen think she very handsome and dowan to take off her sunglasses. wadeva. she still a good photographer. heehee. then we played with retarded doors in taka. and stuff. then me nurin suria and nish had to go home.

on our way home. you know the area outside heeren. yupps. there was a small boy playing drums like so supper pro larh. so brave some more. wahppiang. can die mann see his hand move. so fast. better than travis barker i think. then when finished me and nish cheered and we realised we the only ones cheering. we forgot that we're not in cedar compound.

SARAH J !!! your birthday rocks you know that? and to think you wanted to spend your birthday watching romantic tv all by yourself in your room. wadahells. i can't wait to go to school and have stairs deppression with cheryl again. haha. HAPPY BIRTHDAY SARAH J !!! hope you enjoyed it.

'old age isn't so badwhen you consder the alternative'-quoted by maurice chevalier

waste time

2006-04-26T07:57:00.000-07:00

bleahx. i can't take it !!!

wahpiang. so hard to forget eh? it's taking soooo much of my energy. i don't know whether by doing this will make situations better or worse. but it sure is crushing my soul !!! but really. lacking of gratitude for those who really care. waddahell. i promise not to act that way to others okay:? okay. ha. going crazy. answer my own qns.

ms jou never come. wheets. but i still can't that i have show and tell tmr. wadahell. kaes. at least i'm prepared this time. on second thought, i never ever prepare my presentations by script. i prefer being spontaneous. okay, i'm throwing my script.

PE was cool. we played rounders or something. run here run there doing crap. can't even catch properly. so we lost 3-8. i think miss leong laugh alot today. good mood i think. ermmms.

reccess. teachers' COLOURS [it's not buzz@ canteen anymore guys...] so cute. they can really act eh. wonder what they become teachers for. can go join mediacorp alledy larh. so bloody cute. ha. ms phua dance damn funny. laughing like crazy at the other end. wheeps.

then TOP period we did ss. ha. didn't finish and in any case, didn't want to finish. waddahell. concetrating too much on the board and no.4 preparations. after TOP staright away change. and i was sweating like crazy. dunno why today alot of ppl compliment us about our uniform. wierd. we were going to fall in when sir said SYF was cancelled. shits. they practice soooo early for what?

SO charlie `06 spent our time , not crapping, but doing work. the physics people were studying physics and the bio people were doing bio. well tried to aniwaes. i do half my worksheets then i went to buy this rose thinggy which cost 4.30 dollars. and ended up not being able to make it. waste money.

it would be better if she could just freaking responded. but waddahells. that will never happen. that stoner.

'surprises let me know she cares'- quoted by Blink 182

over

2006-04-25T07:46:00.000-07:00

IT's OVER !!!

-past tense-
history'
.fullstop.
legend~
[the-end]

okay. officially. for good. yes that's it. I'm over it. the phenomenon is gone FOREVER. yesh. ha. they had 2nd period PE!!! whatever...

it's never gonna disturb me anymore and disrupt my chemistry concentration. the high is GONE. i think. i mean like.whatever. lorh. yepps. i've got other thinggs to think about !!!

biology is killing me. killed me. and will kill me. whatever. stupid cells. epidermis. epethelium. epe-urhead arh!!! omg. so bloody irritating and confusing !!! wuakakas can die.

nurin and i had loads of fun disturbing cikgu. muakakas. can't wait for tmr and disturb her again. yahooo... so funny.

then just now during art. typography. wahh. supper amazing. heys. my teeth feels so fresh from yesterday's dental check up.the nurse taught me which angle to turn when taking photo. hahah. i wish i wore braces. looks cool larh. tmr got SYF. mwahahas. heard we getting the no.1 uniform tmr. yayness.

'you gotta takes chances for the things you care about'- quoted from EIGHT BELOW

whee

2006-04-17T23:35:00.000-07:00

COM SPOIL

long time no blog. my computer spoil cannot on. so here i am trying to blog in school. in school: wad a wierd place to blog. cos everyone at home is blaming me for the computer thinggy. mph. IT'S NOT MY FAULT GODDAMMIT !!! ok nvm... patience.

yesh. got loads to say.haha. must clear some stuff.

GOH WEITING !!! i'm sorry... i tried for one day. tried to say michael jackson rocks instead but i couldn't last a day. hmph. sorri. bleahx. really. tried again todayand cannot. tell you arh. I'm tired of the non-response. hmph.

oh yesh. i got whacked in the morning. because i ate my breakfast before i prayed. hmph. my dad whip me at the wrong place whip asso near the armpit. now, i cannot raise my arm aledy. bleahx. cannot aim.

FREAK. random. 2.4 goodness. ppl with their long legs. wuakak.

GUYS are EGO !!! omg. that staement is sooo true. except for SnA of course. wuakkakas.lurve them to bits and pieces. SEE everyone in the whole entire freaking world. I'M perfectly NORMAL!!!

'i don't have a quote !!!' -quoted by me

expected

2006-03-31T04:18:00.000-08:00

UNEXPECTED DAY.

hrmms. wad did i do first in the morning? oh yesh. yiou said i looked old in the morning. hmph. then i gabra chem hw. aiyah. nvm. aini was sooo cute. I wanted to borrow her chem ws. her first page was sooo nice. all filled in. until i turned the page. everything was blank !!! she only did first page. ha. nonsence.

lucky i look for yara during reccess or i wouldn't have seen the person sitting diagonally from her. ha. hehe. oh yesh. i was looking looking in the cantten but cannot find. yati said: 'expect the unexpected'. random. then it became unrandom. because, when i went to the staff room to run an errand for ms. low, i found what i was looking for. ahem.

whole day we were dreading chem. becos we cannot finish the file. then, chem period: she gave us back our common test. i failed. 8/25. die. my mum will force me to quit NCC if she found out. i must work harder. kae then i wasn't listening to what the ms chng was saying. stupid. she mark my worksheet wrongly larh. and worse !!! she left early ! sooo... the whole morning, we spent rushing the chem assignments for NOTHING !!!

i think my eenglish sucks. i don't understand what i was writing for ss: 'if the country intrude another country's border, then that country would feel unhappy. tension will build up btw the two countries. and that country would then retaliate the other country's actions. and thus, resulting in war between the two countries.' you understand? limited vocab. but ss is abt countries isn't it? anyway. char si gua jessica shen rocks. XY Nathin rocks more for killing her. random.

co night meeting. deco comm. ha. i think our planning rocks. but i want the old theme back !!!nvm. nurin and me went to beach road. such a funny experience. we wanted to buy half-fingered gloves. then must try the size.. so we took size M. so we tried. then we couldn't take it off ! it was stuck. ha. so reatarded. i yanked the glove off nurin's hand. and she yanked mine off. look so spas larh. the aunty also helped and she was laughing and laughing. so we bought size L. we talked about herr almost all the way back larhs. oh yesh. we missed two 100 bus because i wanted to buy siew mei. ha.

then go to white sand macs. and go fetch my sister from school. nurin thinks my sister is freaky. i think so too. haha.

i love my driver and 4 spare tyres. miss them to the core. omg. can't wait for school to reopen. i need my driver and spare tyres !!!

'Roles and models destroy genius and art'- quoted by William Hazlitt

standard

2006-03-29T05:39:00.000-08:00

MAAM SAID OUR STANDARD WAS SOLID

omg. can you believe it? she's normally so blunt and straight forward and she said our standard was SOLID. ha. so happy when i heard it. brighten up my day. this shows that we worked our ass off for something after all. maams RAWK!!! ex specs RAWK !!! ex ex specs RAWK !!! yay.

today got nothing much larh. school was bleahx. parade was abc, and home is disgusting. sooo not much larh. except... I MISS heartbreak. and i came up with the spare tyre theory. yesh. i'm going to abide against it. i hope. hamster is sooo cute.

my shin bone hurts on both legs now.

'An injury is musch sooner forgotten than an insult'- quoted by Lord Chesterfield

painting

2006-03-26T01:15:00.000-08:00

PAINTS

woah. i finish my self-potrait!!! whee- hahaha. so happy. [thanks SYAHIDAH!!! for your paint. and i'll get you one day] lalala. i painted my hair blue. but can you tell nope. haha. because i figured: if i painted my hair with black paint, then how the hell am i supposed to do shading. can't possibly shade BLACK ritex? then if i added light, it would become grey. I don't have grey hair. thus, i coloured my hair BLUE!! ! see... alot of thinking went into painting my self-potrait.

my hand looks better than before. although it's still ugly. but it looks better. my face too i think. hahaha. sooo happy. i like my koko krunch box. hehs.

soooo sad. leaders investiture over alledy. all those rehearsals. it's over. oh yes. someone told me i don't march like an NCC cadet. wadahell. guess who? oh mann. i miss leaders invest rehearsals. burpps. i miss herr. wahhh...

still can't get the fact that the sec. 4s are graduating this year... boohoos. seemed just yesterday they were our sec 2 seniors. and now, they are going to graduating... hrmms. am i thinking too much abt things that do not concern me?

guess wad? i'm bored- ohh yesh. i got homework. ahhh.. hells. i think i'm going out to eat today. good. i can't stand home cooked meals anymore. sorry ma.

i think time passes much toooooo fast. hrmms. can you believe it? after all this time, i'm still camp sick? omg. siaoz rite. i still miss instructors, leaders and campers. ohhh yesh. the campsite too. that time, i was going to west coast with my uncle and cuzzies and i asked hime to stop by LAC on the way. haha. then they went there and they were like uhhhh... nvm. they can't see the beauty behind the walls of that enchanting building. haiz. miss oac too the max.

'Art is nothing thinking something up. It is the opposite -- getting something down' -quoted by julia cameron

2006-03-24T05:48:00.000-08:00

whatever.

i'm sick and tired of you telling me what to do. everything is just not good enough anymore rite? everybody else happens to be better than me mow larh. waddahell is wrong with you? sacrificed alot of things because you told me to and now you ask me to quit NCC? you can go to hell !!! ask me a thousand times, i'm not gonna quit! if i quit NCC, i'm not coming to school ever again. what's the bloody point? it's my life and my dreams; something that you will never be a part of. don't blame your problems on me. and don't treat me like i'm part of the wall. cos i'm not. taking out your anger on me because you are stressed at work is horeible. it sucks. you don't care abt my everyday work. all you think of is exams. what you see in the final paper. don't you think effort goes into getting that marks. no matter how low it is? so back off.

i miss the world's justice

dying

2006-03-23T06:32:00.000-08:00

DEAD

There's a name for war and killing
There's a name for giving in
When you know another answer
For me the name is sin

But there's still time to turn around
And make all hatred cease
And give another name to living
And we could call it PEACE....

- John Denver, 1982

why is everyone dying. everyday surely news got somebody die... whaddahell is happening to the world these days. so depressing you know. haiz. the sun will shine one day. see, everyone should live life to their fullest. yupp. do your best in everything because you will never know... you will NEVER know.

hrmm. why am i so emotional huh? dunno larh. answer my own qns. oh gosh. leaders investiture is tmr. the ACTUAL thing. omg. omg. the whole school and some other ppl from other schools. so malu. arghh!

guess what? i think i will work hard for this term. becos my results suck to a large extent. empty hopes. -no- i must not think liddat. I CAN DO IT !!! self-convince. ha. yes. motivation? check. check. check. determination? check. attitude? check. time? not checked. hmph.

Blimey// haha. like Ron Weasley. ha. i'm sooo happy to be wearing dull gold tmr. JIA YOU EVERYONE!!! leaders invest will rock !!!

yeah. i ain't got no fever no more. and i ran 4 rounds ard the school for PT. ha.

'It is all right letting yourself go, as long as you can get yourself back'- quoted by Mike Jagger

sickness

2006-03-18T21:21:00.000-08:00

I'm SICK !!!

ha. i always thought i had a high immune system. bleahx myself. now, i have headache, running nose, sore throat, cough and fever. omg. waddahell dudes. yeah dudes. okae lame.

I'm sick and i feel like shit
i hate shit so i hate being sick

eh wait. anybody know how to do the amaths worksheet? cause it's damn bloody hard larh. let's see what homework i have left: amaths and ALOT of art. omg. i'm going to die.

I'm sick and i feel like shit
i hate shit so i hate being sick.

oh yes. I can't wait to go to school !!! yeah. school reopening. wheets.

I'm sick and i feel like shit
i hate shit so i hate being sick !!!

'Although the world is full of suffering, it is full also of the overcoming of it' -quoted by Helen Keller

freakky

2006-03-14T07:12:00.000-08:00

I AM NOT A FREAK

stop looking at me like i'm some kind of freak. bcos i'm not. first cikgu now my friends now you !!! it's irritating larhs. don't like me just say cann. i oso don't expect you to do so. but don't show until like that larh. i'm NOT a freak!!! don't make me hate you.

waddeva. spoil my day.

my parents sucks to a large extent.

'He who allows himself to insulted, deserves to be' -quoted from Pierre Cornielle

embarresing

2006-03-13T05:49:00.000-08:00

the most malu day ever !!!

you know what? ok. obviously you don't know so i shall tell you. today is the most suay day ever.

actually it started off well. very well infact. very very well in fact. came to school at eight o'clock. waited for herr to come like for sooo long. i was like waiting and waiting with weiting. ehhs. it rhymes. hahahaha. then we went inside. suddenly, i got this urge to go out and wait. so that's exactly what i did. i went out and looked down at the courtyard and guess what? I SAW HERR !!! see told you my psychic-tism rocks.

leaders invest went okay i think. haks. then was challenge quest training. me suria and ic dhilshad. jogged 2 rounds then sprint then walk around then squats then jog then sprints then monkey bar then steps then the leggy thinggy then i had to go home. sorry suria. left you with ic. sorry veh much. hehs.

niwaes. went home and you noe wad? the first thing i did was wash my two bloody hands. after all i went through to get the stain there and i washed it. hmph. then suay started happening.

my knees ache like crazy. cannot stand straight alledy. hmph. my mother ask me to bring my two irritatin little beastly sisters to the library [yes safiah, i haf little midgets sisters !] wahh. go library and eat like pigg larh. ask me to buy brownies and mcdonalds. wadahell. still, i managed to finish my emaths hw. ha.

another suay thing happened. the most suay-est of all. i felt like peeing so i went to the toilet. i went in did my business and when i got out, i got a shock of my life. i saw guys inside. then i was wondering why the walls were blue and not pink. the i look at the door... omg. i went into the GUY's toilet larh... omg. so embarassing. they were all staring at me. then suddenly they OI here OI there. excuse me it was a bloody accident !!! i ran out ok... ran and ran and ran. then i remembered i left my sister at the library so i ran back and ran to the bus stop took the bus and go home.

omg. sick. i didn't see anything okay. still camp sick horh.

'Suicide is the sincerest form of critism that life gets' -quoted from Wilfred Sheed

bleahx

2006-03-11T23:24:00.000-08:00

crap day~

omg. sorry i never come to rehearsal. see, mu jia, crap day is destructive. because of crap day, i'm in like supper deep shit.

i never slapped anyone on friday in school. got lah. but i forgot so when i got home the first thing i did was slap my youngest sister. then, that stoopid hell of a creature go and cry. i mean, waddahell. crybaby forever. then she go and tell my mother. then my mother don't allow me to go anywhere for the hols only to school and she don't allow me to go to leaders invest rehearsal. waddahell.

just one stoopid slap. omg. mummy's pet. hmph.

wuakakas. i'm still camp sick. can you believe it? shall say no more. i miss- oik- i shall say no more. i miss O -shuddup adlin.omg- i shall say no more. I MISS OAC `06. gives me a chance to leave this hell of a house !!!

ok. i got something to say. i think michael jackson and elvis rocks. outofpoint. i need to say it because people seem to forget that they rock.

my brother got into laselle-sia. waddahell. it was my dream school first you noe. idiot.

'the camber of secrets has been opened; enemies of the heir beware' -quoted from harry potter

camp sick

2006-03-10T03:11:00.000-08:00

omg. I'm camp sick !!!

i want to go back to camp. i want to stay in LAC. i don't want to break camp. [actually, i never really did] omg. i miss everything. from campers to leaders; from breakfast to night cap. omg. i can't take it anymore/

you know i was soooo excited to go to sch today that my mother thought it was wierd. I was sooo excited to see the instructors leaders and campers again. wheets. but i saw so little leaders today.

i saw:
leader karmun- hehs. she wanted to attack me during recess. hmph. she's cute tho.
leader sining- during leaders invest and phototaking. i think her voice veh deep. haks.
leader shu hwee- leaders invest; played thousand legged worm. haks. she was so nice.
leader jessica- leaders invest; played thousand legged worm oso. hehs.
leader shermain- leaders invest and she reminded me about 'cepat mati'
leader siying- leaders invest; she ask wanning to ask me why i scaredof her. she not scary meh? okaes...
leader amelia- leaders invest; she soooo super tall cann... like giant. but not as tall as leader dolly i think
leader weeling- leaders invest but she never acknowledge me. hmph. still she veh nice.
leader gracia-leaders invest. she soo nice larh.

leader rochelle- walk past oni.

leader audrey- emcee for leaders invest

leader cheryl chin- during recess. she look so happy and cute. haks.

leader shao yu- leaders invest; they said she could dance. hahas. i can't wait.

leader rachel- cut her hair; no comments larh. she sooo dao.

leader ics- no comments

such a busy schedule for holidays. they call this a holiday...
homework.leader's invest. self-potrait. teach suria and nish to swim. and god knows wad.

came home soo late. my mother thought i play truant then she crap about me going to sch so early coming back so late. she said she want to do an unexpected spotcheck. waddahell. can't even hide behind a tree then still wan to spy. she thinks i can't be trusted. shits.

oh yesh. today i gave 3 zeal goodies as a token of appreciaton. sooo wierd larh go into the class for chem. then i saw the thank you note on the notice board and i was supper shocked. but they were nice aniwaes. i feel bad for not giving 3a anything. nvm. i'll get them something over the hols. hehs.

once again. i miss OAC `06. i'm sooo sad. i realized leaders are graduating this year. boohoos. wan to cry already. haks. bleahx. but really, i veh sad. i think i'm too camp sick.

'i miss OAC`06 alot alot alot !!! i miss leaders alot alot alot !!! i miss instructors alot alot alot !!! i miss campers alot alot alot !!! I'm camp sick!!!' -quoted by ME

2006-03-08T05:48:00.000-08:00

omg. OAC `06 RAWKS to da EXTREME !!!

can't beleive it's over... hmph. OAC camp rocks larh. all the tears and the laughters. all the stress and the nervousness. it's all worth it !

1st day-
LE and Games: supper fun omg. hrmss. first time i instructed ZEAL 2. so funn. leader cheryl chin is soo cute cute. she kept doing aloha adlin and i have to answer cak aloha leader cheryl.
KNOTS & LASHINGS: haks. leaders came to my group 8 times. then i got too nervous that i lost count. but... i have a tactic. whenever the leaders come, i stop teaching and ask the campers to practice the knots. in that way, i won't screw up the tecaching part. hehs.

2nd day-
TOWER and HE: belay like crazy. but it was supper fun. OBS rawks larh. hahaks. i'm so proud of 3Z. most of them were scared of heights but still they tried. they tried. so proud of them //
INTERACTION: mr eric tan is so mean. he told us to go somewhere else because he needed some private time with the class. don't get me wrong he said it in a nice way but i think what he meant was GET LOST ! hehes. then when we came back, 3z said thank you for belaying them well and they thought instructors did a good job. wheets. so touched.

3rd day-
PET ROCKET: boring like crazy because i don't undersatnd a single thing. i'm a bio student for goodness sake !
FIELDCOOKING: watch them cook until i became so hungry. then they spilled macaroni. haks. ok so sadistic. thank you 3c and 3s for giving 3Z your food !!!
CRUISE: information overload. yet still fun. i reliased, i'm scared of boats. huge boats. then, overcomed it in 2 hours. so waddahell.
NIGHT HIKE: so fun. whitefig/smilax/andsome other wierd palnts which i can't remember the name. asst. chief evelyn was so cute. keep laughing and laughing. she took the elephant apple, smelled it, said 'ok what...' and laughed. maybe nish and i were too spas. haks.

4th day-
LC: so fun. 3Z finished first. hahas. then we followed S3 to the jetty with herr. and they did a mohaka cheer for jiayuan and herr. yeeps so nice. sucha wonderful day. although i was quite dead.
CAMPFIRE PREP: took quite long for 3z to warm up but after that... FUYOU!!! they rocked the earth larhs. we got the exclusive preview of the OBS kemama cheer. hahs. sing an sing like crazy then go and play pepsi cola for one hour while the campers slept. haks. instructors vs leaders. we lost but still we tried.
ASTRONOMY: the talk was a bit long winded and zeal instructors were trying to cheer 3n up by telling the lamest jokes on earth. omg. saturn looked soo fake yet sooo real. leader dolly/siying/karmun are sooo creeeeeepy... they stare at people like so creepy. kepp bullying us for no reason. then while waiting to look at the stars, instructors were telling campers and leaders lame jokes but herr just sat with another leader and talked. how boring.-as in the two of them
SENTRY: did for 1 hour and used the other half an hour to sleep. leader sining and leader seok han rawks larh.
~this was the night that the instructors cried. not gonna elaborate more.

5th day-
EXPRESSIONS: instructors crap like crazy because we got nothing to do. hahas. then we slept for one hour on the hard ground. dreamt of mushrooms. and got mushrooms for dinner. wierd huh?
AR: herr was supposed to be attached to me. but last minute change. whew. then leader karmun took over. and to stop making her stare at me. i gave her her pear and distracted her with all the lamest jokes. hehs. had sooo much fun although we didn't know where we were going. leader karmun rawks.
CAMPFIRE: what can i say, the most exciting part of camp. the emcees were sooo cute. gc and yy all the way. instructors were so high. weiting and my plan didn't work. haiya. though i think the performances took too long that by the leader's performance came, the ncc ppl already had to go home. hmph. so sad i almost cried.

nurin's mom brought us to eat at her fathers shop then went home. i felt sooo guilty and unfair. then today, went back to school and gt a very touching greetings from the campers. thanks all of you. the first thing christabel and safiah did when they see me was deliberately dragging their feet. whatever. live range shooting. rawks.

to ZEAL, thanks for being a very very nice class to be with. i feel so honoured to be incharge of your class.
to AFFABLE, i miss you guys loads !!! omg. esp my mummy and daddy. and everybody else. heard y'all bonded more in OAC !!!
to CHIEF, ASST. CHIEFS,LEADERS, i love you guys loads. thanks for your guidance and care. you people never fail to make our day when we are feeling down. thank you ever so much !
to INSTRUCTORS, you guys are the world to me. we braved every obsatcles and conquered oac. wheets. we ROCK to the EXTREME.

'OAC `06 rawks. there's no place i'd rather be than with my OAC family. love you guys to the max'- quoted by ME

OAC `06

2006-03-02T05:31:00.000-08:00

panic day has arrived.

wahh. so excited yet so scared. tmr is OAC. can you beleive it??? omg.

niwaez. today is shit. had THREE periods of a maths and amaths common test. can die i tell you.

then. sports' day heats. 10 x 80. waddahell. sucked larh. we lost d-uh... still we tried our best !!! JIAYOU 3A!!! babes of outstanding brilliance. but after that something irritating happened. what? she thinks i'm a pile of junk to be stepped over or wad? go to hell!!!

went to eastpoint to eat BAN MIAN noodle which is my favourite noodle. and looked for minor camp stuff at WATSONS. fetched my sister than went home.

Packed my bag and it looks like a baloon. it's 6 day camp... so excusable... then decided to print out ma notes... yupp and kept it in a file.

can't wait for camp... whee. this is going to be challenging but what the heck. INSTRUCTORS `06 are gonna rock OAC. JIAYOU !!! ALL THE WAY !!!

'Man cannot discover new oceans until he has the courage to lose sight of the shore' -source unknown

wahh.

2006-03-01T05:00:00.000-08:00

i can't wait has been waited.

omg. thsi morning was soooooo super nice. omg omg. i can't remember anything she said larh. i was trying to 'recompose' myself. Sec 3s are soooo super evil larh. when she comeout oni everyone was like 'adlin....'. SO BLOODY LOUD cann... and yara worst. she sing herr cheer larh... omg. and she ws sooo super cute... heh.' shhh..oi... shhh' haks. dunno why...but she never look at the sec 3 side there so i'm lucky i guess.

oh yah. then their PE was first period and mine was SECOND !!! waks. can die. saw her playing some wierd sport then i dao. heks. eeps. so nice...

then everything went as per normal and i just realized i have amaths common test tomorrow and i have to pack oac bag. and do my argumentative essay which i left at my cuzin's place.

i just relized that we will be going to alot of camps this year. OAC, AKE, AUC, specs course x3. omg. my parent's are sooo gonna kill me if my marks go down. I need help for my studies !!! it's like sooooo super shit cann.

Then cnc. oklarh. but my voice crack like crazy then it uncracked back. ha. oh yah... i sooo disappointed because while i was jogging then suddenly i cannot breathe then i stop and took deep breaths and i ended up to be one of the last cann. how can be? omg. so disappointed in myself. give up too easily.

hrmph. shits. no.4 to prepare oso.

'It takes a long time to become young' -Pablo Picasso

hell day.

2006-02-28T03:03:00.000-08:00

hell day like hell larh.

today was bullshit day for 3A larh. all of us have droopy eyes and growling stomachs. almost everyone never do homework cann. amaths, biology essay, english argumentative and art!!! omg. can die from stress.

after bio prac which was quite fun btw, we had instructors meeting. the understudies debriefed us on our timetable for the camp. omg. pity the campers. have to come up with FIFTEEN meal cheers. then i was looking looking for her and i SAW!!! wow.

Then stayed back for a little. andi run here run there doing *ahem stuffs. wow. can't wait for tmr !!! argh... tonight cannot sleep... argh !!! cannot wait larh. so excited. wahpiang just now so paiseh. aniwaes...

oh yah. I reached home at 5:30pm and I finished preparing my WHOLE no.3 uniform at 7:00pm. wow. record time cann! to me larh. haks. i asked my brother to fetch my sister for me. [he's getting paid for that okaes...]

yayness- tmr got belay school and parade. All on a 'Wedsday' hehes... just something veh funny that herr argued about this morning. hehs.wahh. tiring leh...

Thanks everyone who remembered herr cheer by heart. hehs. can't wait for tmr !!!

'The Grand essentials of happiness: something to do, something to love, something to hope for' -Allan K. Chalmers

back off.

2006-02-27T02:56:00.000-08:00

waddahell.

shits. he critisiced my cca. and my cedar.
you can criticise my stupidity and attitude. but NEVER EVER cedar ncc.

parents.
shits.

oh my god. herr rawks.
just now was instructors' audition for campfire. omg. i think it sucks. but it was veh touching larh to me. I didn't know *ahem was inside lah cann. then when i was about to say my line then my eyes go don't know where... then i saw. haha. wow. took a deep breath and said my line and sang. whew! got through it alive! didn't look at her area at all. so intimidating. got ics and all the np ppl. so dao like anything.

then go to somerset and look for sports bra for suria, pat and sarahj. jump from spec. to og to urban warehouse just to look for the coloured ones. lemme see what did suria say ,'good quality cheap bra' ha. whaddahell. hers loosened !!! hahahahaha.

here at my cousin's house to study... ya right! boozies...
lotsa homework and two uniforms to prepare. die.

'Thin people are beautiful but Fat people are adorable'- jim rohn

speeding.

2006-02-25T20:27:00.000-08:00

Speeding is bad for your health. yuppz.

i was in the car just now and father speed like crazy and i vomited on his car seat and now...
i am in my room supposedly 'sleeping'.

hehs. =D
serve him right.

Friday is OAC. so excited! Can't wait! hrmmss... oh yah...
after that got life range... haiyah, i don't want to miss last day of OAC !!!

shits.

i got alot of homework but i'm not going to do now... you know why?
i'm going to do LATER !!! hahahaha...

'if there's no music, life would be a mistake' -quoted from GRAMOPHONE

ass.

2006-02-24T07:37:00.000-08:00

why must they dao me. what did i do wrong? went through alot for them you know.

hmph.

now she knows. i think a bit veh obvious.
and cikgu sucks for accusing me of such a serious bitch of nonsence.

waddahell.
'am i positive or do i force myself to be positive?' -quote from ms. Jou.

~*she rawks by the way.

WADDAHELL

2006-02-24T05:19:00.000-08:00

heartbreak `06 realli sucks-