yeah. i promised to say that. okay. 6hrs straight today painting THE WALL. it looks better and i'm in love with the guy. haha. he's so hot and burnt. yeah! :)) okay, this is my last day painting until dunno when cos FIHOM dun allow. so yah.

day two:

then i go john little sale with FIHOM and my sissies. and i saw sgt emilia. yup. she was working there as a promoter i think. i dun dare smile or wave to her cos i scared. she looks dao. and i've never toked to her before aniwaes.

i wished i have a sound proof room. everything happens for a reason. one day, i'll spare some time to look for the reasons why you're doing this. but for now, i'll just take it in my stride for as long as i can take. if i lose control, i'm not sure i'll be able to come back. at least, i know i have friends and my dear plt mates to lean on in rough times. sorry to be a burden guys! love ya! wouldn't it be nice to have someone who you can give yourself away to completely. so that if someone else hurts you, you've got nothing left to lose? gosh. i feel numb. i dunno what to feel right now. numb.

so much for calling coconut to ease my soul.
me: hello
coconut: hello
me: you free? can talk?
coconut: sorry dei. i'm with .... [his gf]. can't talk now. call you back later.
*puts down the phone

it's 11pm now. i'm not bothered to wait. i shall sleep.

i'm still thinking of that sanctuary...

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Wednesday, December 06, 2006, 6:46 AM i look like i just came out of the paint bucket! *do i look artsy?* yeah. i promised to say that. okay. 6hrs straight today painting THE WALL. it looks better and i'm in love with the guy. haha. he's so hot and burnt. yeah! :)) okay, this is my last day painting until dunno when cos FIHOM dun allow. so yah. day two: then i go john little sale with FIHOM and my sissies. and i saw sgt emilia. yup. she was working there as a promoter i think. i dun dare smile or wave to her cos i scared. she looks dao. and i've never toked to her before aniwaes. i wished i have a sound proof room. everything happens for a reason. one day, i'll spare some time to look for the reasons why you're doing this. but for now, i'll just take it in my stride for as long as i can take. if i lose control, i'm not sure i'll be able to come back. at least, i know i have friends and my dear plt mates to lean on in rough times. sorry to be a burden guys! love ya! wouldn't it be nice to have someone who you can give yourself away to completely. so that if someone else hurts you, you've got nothing left to lose? gosh. i feel numb. i dunno what to feel right now. numb. so much for calling coconut to ease my soul. me: hello coconut: hello me: you free? can talk? coconut: sorry dei. i'm with .... [his gf]. can't talk now. call you back later. puts down the phone it's 11pm now. i'm not bothered to wait. i shall sleep. i'm still thinking of that sanctuary...*