;My heart did time in Siberia

was waiting for a lie to come true

ADLIN FAKHRUDIN
cedarnccdelta07
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oal 06-07
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ARGH!

Thursday, November 16, 2006, 6:04 AM

!shit!

she made me cry.

i'm bloody pissed with my mom.

i tot she was the understanding one. ARGH! goodness. so idiotic. why can't parents be understanding and listen FOR ONCE. just one minute to listen also i don't mind. but not even listening at all! wtf. if only she was the one rushing from one point of singapore to the opposite point of singapore everyday. i thought we got closer this year. i thought i made her happy this year. i tried like crazy. ok. she want me to go from clementi for tuition, ok, i go. then after tuition, fetch my sister from school. and expect me NOT to be late. WHAT?! she expects me to fly all the way to pasir ris is it?! too much. ok. i'm struggling with my studies already... YV@#R%I@T*&^!!! bloody pissed la. then she say wad? if ncc, i go three days never come back oso can; if OAL stuff, belay school until late, until miss break fast oso can... then she say bad influence from friends. WTF! man. you can bitch abt my studies abt my morals but never EVER bitch abt my friends, my cca, or the oal board. because without them, i won't even come to school. they're the ones that support me when she said i couldn't makeit. they are like my pillars of bloody strength okae?

so BACK OFF!

BURDEN, BURDEN BURDEN! i'm sick of that word.

i feel that no matter how hard i try, i will always be a burden to my mother. even if i slice my butt while trying oso. i will still be a burden. never make my parents happy before. i'm sick of trying ok. sick and tired of it! bahh. i need to breathe. ok. calm down. ARGH!!! cannot. why ah? why liddat? she always say i malu her, i make her angry, useless good fro nothing daughter, stupid unreliable sister. committed to the school oni. she makes me feel like my biggest mistake in life was to get 2nd in class in pri 2. ARGH! i gotta get out now, before i spoil my keyboard.

and i'm not finding a reason to be angry, you stupid useless coconut. sgt dhilshad is right! i shud practice self-control. or i'll end up killing myself! goodness... my biggest wish right now, is to get out and take a midnight bus to nowhere and never ever have to return home! sheesh. home is where the heart is... KEPOOOI ah!

;My heart did time in Siberia was waiting for a lie to come true
ADLIN FAKHRUDIN cedarnccdelta07 antidote. 07 oal 06-07 vjcRockclimber08 take it or leave it MySpace Music Playlist at MixPod.com
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ARGH! Thursday, November 16, 2006, 6:04 AM !shit! she made me cry. i'm bloody pissed with my mom. i tot she was the understanding one. ARGH! goodness. so idiotic. why can't parents be understanding and listen FOR ONCE. just one minute to listen also i don't mind. but not even listening at all! wtf. if only she was the one rushing from one point of singapore to the opposite point of singapore everyday. i thought we got closer this year. i thought i made her happy this year. i tried like crazy. ok. she want me to go from clementi for tuition, ok, i go. then after tuition, fetch my sister from school. and expect me NOT to be late. WHAT?! she expects me to fly all the way to pasir ris is it?! too much. ok. i'm struggling with my studies already... YV@#R%I@T&^!!! bloody pissed la. then she say wad? if ncc, i go three days never come back oso can; if OAL stuff, belay school until late, until miss break fast oso can... then she say bad influence from friends. WTF! man.* you can bitch abt my studies abt my morals but never EVER bitch abt my friends, my cca, or the oal board. because without them, i won't even come to school. they're the ones that support me when she said i couldn't makeit. they are like my pillars of bloody strength okae? so BACK OFF! BURDEN, BURDEN BURDEN! i'm sick of that word. i feel that no matter how hard i try, i will always be a burden to my mother. even if i slice my butt while trying oso. i will still be a burden. never make my parents happy before. i'm sick of trying ok. sick and tired of it! bahh. i need to breathe. ok. calm down. ARGH!!! cannot. why ah? why liddat? she always say i malu her, i make her angry, useless good fro nothing daughter, stupid unreliable sister. committed to the school oni. she makes me feel like my biggest mistake in life was to get 2nd in class in pri 2. ARGH! i gotta get out now, before i spoil my keyboard. and i'm not finding a reason to be angry, you stupid useless coconut. sgt dhilshad is right! i shud practice self-control. or i'll end up killing myself! goodness... my biggest wish right now, is to get out and take a midnight bus to nowhere and never ever have to return home! sheesh. home is where the heart is... KEPOOOI ah!