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Tuesday, December 19, 2006, 4:55 AM
i MOVED la ppl!Sunday, December 17, 2006, 9:21 PM
ok. i'm i a mood to post photos. but since i don't have any phtos of my own YET. ishall post photos of my two favourite boys. yeah.
this is dhani lennevald:
that was back then, now he's 21 and he looks like this:
OMG! cool rite?! man, i hate guys and their fast growth! i still haven't grow since last year i think! i want to grow. and btw. he looks hot with six pecs. although it's a bit senget here, senget there. but at least he have rite? i went yucks and ooooooohhhhh at the same time. haha.
ok! my FAVOURITE guy. AMIT PAUL:
cool rite? omg. i love this pic. i want to put as my wallpaper but cannot. later my brother scold me. he said i'm not of age to like guys. doink! and he's of HEIGHT to like girls huh? wth. nvm. amit rocks. cos he reminds me of monyet. heh. and now, he looks like this:
disappointed eh? haiya. but i forgive him for his obvious neglect for his personal style. that's because, while all the other a teens members are busy doing their solo careers, you what's he doing? STUDYING! cool man. economy i think. yeah, and he's quite good at it. haha. see? my dream guy rocks! heh. smart guys don't have time to think about looks. ha. what's there for him to think about anyway. dreamy
so there it is! my favourite guys, later i'll post more things abt other favourites. haha. feel like it! om and btw! I FINISH my EMATHS HOMEWORK!!!
and i end with this,
AMIT AND DHANI ROCKS MY STINKY SOCKS!!!
3 days.
Saturday, December 16, 2006, 7:45 AM
ohk. i sahll first blog about thurs.haha. funny day funny day.
first had selcetion for interview for ltc. [which i came late btw] had to argue to get out of the house. wth. how can she talk and talk and talk and expect me to go back and sleep? funny woman. so i left the hse without asking. haha.
therefore, i was late. like 1 hour late. so blah blah blah. after the discussion...
painting THE WALL!
oh yes. kathleen and i want to start a rumour that whoever scratches the wall will die in 10 days. i bet kath forgot abt it already. oh wells.
aniwaes. paint paint paint. then suria came. she didn't want to go home. so she jogged. after one round, she gave up and help us paint. so she's a new member in THE WALL club. yeah! oooohhh!!! and she's afraid of ladders. as in going up the ladder. that's just plain stupid!
HOW CAN SHE BE TALL AND BE AFRAID OF HEIGHTS AT THE SAME TIME!?
doesn't make sense rite?
blah blah blah. heard some ppl singing from the third level. HAHA. laugh like crazy. k nvm. supposed to finish painting. but ohwells. another session will do okae?! must ah!
then met tariq and haikal and went to city hall to get my MP3 fixed. MAN!!! life without my MP3 will be damn hard! and stupid! tariq doesn't have to pay bcos he has his warranty card. is it my fault my box got lost?! ok. mayb it is. man $42 IF they can find the lost thinggy. i'm dead. tell me i'm dead.
ohyes. the most paiseh thing happen. we were eating an long john's. k. so i bought my fav, grilled fish thing with black pepper sauce. then the guy was abt to serve me. then he gave me the plate and you know what happened?
I LOST GRIP OF IT AND IT SPILLED!
like the whole bloody thing! shits man. for a minute, the whole restaurant was looking at us. PAISEH MUCH! then the guy looked guilty. sorryla. he went a make another one. tariq said i was like 'omigosh! shit! how?! what to do?!' alot of times for SEVEN minutes straight. then he made me apologise to his jeans. SORRY! i made long john's rugi $5.50! then i realised that my drink was the only one with cover. go figure. they wer like making fun of me throughout the whole journey la! shits. man.
then went to raffles city. walk walk walk. thought of going to watch movie. but changed our minds. can you believe it? i cannot find drake bell CD at sembawang? mann. and HAIKAL! don't buy psp. your whole life is a video game la. wait. do you have a life?! HAHA. then went to downtown east. ate MIX AND MATCH. $8.50 for three ppl worth it what... ok. then watch the jazz kids christmas carols. haha. they were cute. and i realised their dancing steps were like all the same... doink! then they send me home.
ok. friday. i wanted it to be an uneventful day. and it was uneventful except for the part when i wanted to go to the white sands library. with my sissies and mom. then when we entered the lift i was like WOAH. there was a guy inside with his face in a mask. and wearing a hat. and i think i sadi 'WOAH!' to loud. that the guy beside him was saying. 'oh, it's russel lee' and i was like 'i know'. i mean like who wouldn't know. so then i was in the lift and he said 'hi'. RUSSEL LEE said hi to me! doink! i was staring at him. it didn't occur to me that doesn't mean i can't see his eyes, he can't see mine. ok. so in conclusion... I WAS IN THE SAME LIFT AS THE MOST FAMOUS GHOST STORY AUTHOR IN SINGAPORE! doink! so much for uneventful...
so today. went to escape with tariq and haikal again. man. no kick ah. pepsi was like our main fav. but it's still closed. damn it. we didn't take many rides. mainly alot of rainbow. haunted house. in which i broke my beach sandals. but i fixed it. CHERYL!!! don't throw away that billabong sandal! i know how to fix! ohk. niwaes. they were still making a fun of me abt long john's incident. damn them. doink! oh yes. and we made very interesting words.
CROP. what is a crop [referring to the haircut]
it's a cut that is short.
a SHORT CUT! get it?
ok. another one.
PRIMARY SCHOOL MATS. what is a primary school mat?
small mats.
a MINI MAT! get it? mini mat and minimart?
ok another one.
<u>CONTAINER FOR GUITAR PICKS. what do you call a container to keep guitar picks?
it's asmall pocket to put guitar picks.
a PICK POCKET! get it?!
hahahaha. laugh like crazy. ohwait the goa laugh. meh meh meh. siao ting tong.
coconut just won't talk! not my fault rite?! my only link won't talk. this is depressing!
OH! this video rocks! cause two of my favourite boys are singing like the main verses. AMIT rocks. he like super melts my heart until cannot freeze back. and dhani, he's just super hot.
heh. enjoy!
Tuesday, December 12, 2006, 6:04 AM
giving you benefit of the doubt.
i'm disappointed you feel that way. it's easier said than done. i'm sure IF you were in our position, you'll find it challenging as well. it's not like we didn't try, and didn't fight for what we think is right. but sometimes, things just don't go your way. you understand, don't you? i'm sure you have encountered moments in your life when someone shuts you down. waste all the efforts you have put in. gone down the drain. you ppl fail to realise that behind everything, we have your best interests at heart. even if you don't like the way, we portray ourselves. don't judge a book by it's cover, rmbr? sacrificed our dignity, self-respect, time and effort behind your backs. but do you care?
i shan't accuse you. answer that yourselves.
we've been in your shoes before. we felt the way you guys feel before. been there and done that. we've swallowed more salt than yall. what you said make me look back upon my actions. i've reasoned myself through. there's a first time for everything. first time to get demoralised, first time to get encourage, first time to love, first time to hate. i have put myself in your shoes. now, it's your turn to put yourself in ours.
yes, we make mistakes. but there will come a time when you cannot afford to make mistakes. there will come a time when your mistakes will affect others. there will come a time when mistakes are no longer mistakes, they're crimes. there will come a time, when you can't turn around and say 'i've done my time for that mistake'. when certain situation comes along, mistakes cannot be forgiven nor can it be fixed. when you're in our position, or if you want to be, you cannot get away with the smallest mistake. you just cannot anticipate what is gonna happen. therefore, we take mistakes very seriously.
respect. cannot be defined specifically what it is nor how to show it. but i would like to noe, what it means to you personally. self-respect. there's a saying 'in order to respect others, learn to respect yourself'. from wad i'm seeing, you're not giving yourself a chance. prove me wrong. i admit, i'm still on the road of mastering my self-respect. however, i've been nurtured and broght up to beleive in cedar, than respect for others is much much more important. i practically live by the quote 'others before self' in all aspects. it's not abt being humble, it's abt courtesy. it's basic courtesy to respect one's effort. i respect ppl most when i've seen they made the effort, as i do in all of you. you are like this close to losing any respect i have for you. it's the first time i've felt like this about anyone. never once. never once, have i doubted whether someone deserves the respect or not. omg. i can't belive how self-centered you sound. EVERY HUMAN BEING deserves respect. therefore, i'm giving you the last bit of respect i have for you, in hope that you will change. i shall not mark you down. mayb it's different here cos you are made to show your respect for the authority. i dunno, mayb i've lived too long with a high level of respect for anybody to realise that this might be too difficult to some.
i pity the way you treat yourself. you protray yourself as someone who can't think. can't think for sensibly and reasonably. look back on your words. reason yourself through. i'm giving you benefit of the doubt dat you haven't gone through our trials and tribulations. THINK man, THINK! mayb then you'll see the light. mayb then you'll get why things happen. last time...
THINK!!!
oh yes... i do not appreciate ppl who i do not noe personally linking me. sorry, but i feel uncomfortable. i mean, links are for friends. but if i don't even know you personally. if this carried on... i might have to restrct access to my blog. hope you RESPECT my privacy, as i would do for you. thanks.
i'm disappointed you feel that way. it's easier said than done. i'm sure IF you were in our position, you'll find it challenging as well. it's not like we didn't try, and didn't fight for what we think is right. but sometimes, things just don't go your way. you understand, don't you? i'm sure you have encountered moments in your life when someone shuts you down. waste all the efforts you have put in. gone down the drain. you ppl fail to realise that behind everything, we have your best interests at heart. even if you don't like the way, we portray ourselves. don't judge a book by it's cover, rmbr? sacrificed our dignity, self-respect, time and effort behind your backs. but do you care?
i shan't accuse you. answer that yourselves.
we've been in your shoes before. we felt the way you guys feel before. been there and done that. we've swallowed more salt than yall. what you said make me look back upon my actions. i've reasoned myself through. there's a first time for everything. first time to get demoralised, first time to get encourage, first time to love, first time to hate. i have put myself in your shoes. now, it's your turn to put yourself in ours.
yes, we make mistakes. but there will come a time when you cannot afford to make mistakes. there will come a time when your mistakes will affect others. there will come a time when mistakes are no longer mistakes, they're crimes. there will come a time, when you can't turn around and say 'i've done my time for that mistake'. when certain situation comes along, mistakes cannot be forgiven nor can it be fixed. when you're in our position, or if you want to be, you cannot get away with the smallest mistake. you just cannot anticipate what is gonna happen. therefore, we take mistakes very seriously.
respect. cannot be defined specifically what it is nor how to show it. but i would like to noe, what it means to you personally. self-respect. there's a saying 'in order to respect others, learn to respect yourself'. from wad i'm seeing, you're not giving yourself a chance. prove me wrong. i admit, i'm still on the road of mastering my self-respect. however, i've been nurtured and broght up to beleive in cedar, than respect for others is much much more important. i practically live by the quote 'others before self' in all aspects. it's not abt being humble, it's abt courtesy. it's basic courtesy to respect one's effort. i respect ppl most when i've seen they made the effort, as i do in all of you. you are like this close to losing any respect i have for you. it's the first time i've felt like this about anyone. never once. never once, have i doubted whether someone deserves the respect or not. omg. i can't belive how self-centered you sound. EVERY HUMAN BEING deserves respect. therefore, i'm giving you the last bit of respect i have for you, in hope that you will change. i shall not mark you down. mayb it's different here cos you are made to show your respect for the authority. i dunno, mayb i've lived too long with a high level of respect for anybody to realise that this might be too difficult to some.
i pity the way you treat yourself. you protray yourself as someone who can't think. can't think for sensibly and reasonably. look back on your words. reason yourself through. i'm giving you benefit of the doubt dat you haven't gone through our trials and tribulations. THINK man, THINK! mayb then you'll see the light. mayb then you'll get why things happen. last time...
THINK!!!
oh yes... i do not appreciate ppl who i do not noe personally linking me. sorry, but i feel uncomfortable. i mean, links are for friends. but if i don't even know you personally. if this carried on... i might have to restrct access to my blog. hope you RESPECT my privacy, as i would do for you. thanks.
Thursday, December 07, 2006, 6:36 AM
everyone has dreams. but sometimes, in the midst of everything that's happening, we tend to dream the wrong dream. hope for the wrong hopes. wish for the wrong wishes. what if, by the time we realise our mistake, it's too late? how do we find out whether we're dreaming the right dream, hoping the right hopes, or wishing the right wishes? someone tell me how.
i dunno why... instead of doing homework, i've been watching a teens videos. and drake bell videos. hah. lurve them as in amit and dhani are damn cute haha. drake bell is damn cool. his hair is like super duper cool man. i wish i had hair liked that.
i'm feeling numb. again.
Wednesday, December 06, 2006, 6:46 AM
i look like i just came out of the paint bucket!
yeah. i promised to say that. okay. 6hrs straight today painting THE WALL. it looks better and i'm in love with the guy. haha. he's so hot and burnt. yeah! :)) okay, this is my last day painting until dunno when cos FIHOM dun allow. so yah.
day two:
then i go john little sale with FIHOM and my sissies. and i saw sgt emilia. yup. she was working there as a promoter i think. i dun dare smile or wave to her cos i scared. she looks dao. and i've never toked to her before aniwaes.
so much for calling coconut to ease my soul.
me: hello
coconut: hello
me: you free? can talk?
coconut: sorry dei. i'm with .... [his gf]. can't talk now. call you back later.
*puts down the phone
it's 11pm now. i'm not bothered to wait. i shall sleep.
i'm still thinking of that sanctuary...
Tuesday, December 05, 2006, 5:32 AM
hello. okae. today was today. spent the morning ard 5 plus hours painting THE WALL. now it seriously looks like vandalism. but i like it :) at first, when we got the paint we were like YAY! then after like one hour painting, we were like URGH! so sian- as said by syahidah. but it was nice... btw everyone! all the colours you see on the wall are all made up of the three primary colours! RED BLUE AND YELLOW! and ofcourse, alot of white.
yeah, we finished quite alot today, didn't we syahidah? yupp. it's like a crash painting session. but it turned out pretty good.
first day:
ummm yeah. i haven't start on my homework. therefore... i'm so dead.
how i wish i'm at the charlie chalet again. it rocks btw. squeezing together in one small room. heh. we went escape on the first day. haha. damn fun. scream like mad for nothing. haha. not scary oso we scream. then we went to the haunted house. GOODNESS! nurin amalia harrassed me. she got so scared she hug me. hug my body. hug my nec. my head oso she hug. yucks!sheesh.
then we watch juon. actually... the toshio boy quite cute lah. and kathleen looks like him too. haha. oh then after watching... suddennly, kathleen went to the mirror and tied her hair in two pigtails. omg. i tot she was possessed. since when does that stoner tie her hair in pigtails. scary dude. then sarahj followed too. sheesh.
second day... specs came. i have a confession! you know wen specs arrive... me, suria and nurin were looking for rubber bands and we told sarahj we were running? yupp. that was a lie. we only started running wen we climbed up the stairs. and we purposely panted. heh ;)
ohk. confession done. yupp. so awkward with specs ard. kind of funny. and they know all our secrets. sheesh. i bet one of them is reading this right now. haha. rollerbladed until my leg got blister. like my leg isn't ugly enuf.
bbq. and RUTHIKA CAME!!! she's still the tallest in the platoon. rupinin haven't outgrew her. yay. and whew. ok. bbq bbq. felt crappy and stuff. played a few unbelievable dares. then talked and talked. we squeezed 6 ppl onto 2 mattresses. haha. i was so squashed i was sleeping beside kathleen's butt! yupp. then wake up and talked. ruined the room and left. haiz. chalet was so fun!
that's because it's with my dearest charlie`06! yay. i'm so happy i have you guys! wouldn't trade it for the world. let's do it again next year! but this time we book hotel room! okae?! yay!